Freed after 20 Years of Heroin and Methadone Addiction

Sabine - Munich, Germany

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A New Attempt

On the third day the withdrawal symptoms started. I was sitting in the nice, bright and clean flat of my new Christian friends, surrounded by a group of people who believed that Jesus could help me to overcome my 20 years of heroin and methadone addiction. Like many other addicts, I had tried countless times to quit. I had tried heroin substitutes like codeine and methadone, but these just hooked me even more. I had tried stopping drugs "cold turkey" scores of times, five times under professional medical observation in hospitals. Nothing could keep me away from drugs. When my GP classified me a hopeless case, I knew that I would die a drug addict, just as many of my friends had done before me.

But then I met Franz and his Christian friends, who told me that God can help, and that Jesus is willing and able to set people free from any kind of evil power – even today! I believed what they said, that Jesus would take away any pain, and decided to give it a shot. So here we were, this small group of Christians full of faith and myself, gathered together in a flat to ask God to comply with my last remaining hope. And during the first two days it was great!

Then the agitation started. The cravings and physical pain that only a drug addict understands. We prayed. We sang. We did gymnastic exercises. We went for walks in the fresh air. Eventually any movement became difficult. Nothing really helped. I had thought that the situation would just pass by if we kept praying together, but it didn’t work. I knew that my friends had my methadone and I wanted it. I asked them to give it to me, I pleaded; they wanted me to hang on. I wanted to give in. Escape. I still had a little "stash" saved in my fridge at home; I had to get away and take a taxi there right now. I knew the withdrawal symptoms only too well, and I knew that I just couldn't go through it again. I was a loser and I knew it. Maybe I just didn’t have enough faith? Maybe I had sinned too much? Maybe God didn’t have enough power to break through something as powerful as a methadone addiction? My friends tried to talk me out of it, encouraged me to pull through, but in the end, they knew they couldn’t force me. Peter went downstairs to get the methadone. There really was no hope.

A Hopeless Case

A doctor will only classify someone as a hopeless case after a long career of drug addiction, and I was the perfect example. At 13, out of curiosity, I started to smoke cigarettes and then hash; I wanted to belong to this group of juveniles in my area (Bavaria) – punks, Goths and others. We listened to New Wave and Gothic music and went to the discos, where we boozed and toked until we had to vomit. During this time I left home. I moved to my Gran's place, who was old and couldn’t look after herself anymore, to care for her. This way I had more liberty and could stay out for nights on end.

After a few months I was addicted to heroin

At the age of 15 I started with speed and LSD which I got from a friend. During the day I was the well-behaved daughter, studying for school and passing my final exam well, but in the evening I was ferocious and wild, a ‘Gothic Girl‘. At 17 I tried heroin for the first time and also cocaine, which I then took frequently. I smoked marijuana and of course continued drinking alcohol. At my parents' home the problems increased. There were arguments and fights. The constant clashes left me very unhappy, even my grades started getting worse. I wanted to get out of this situation, so I started taking different types of sleeping and depression tablets, for example Rohypnol, Medinox, and Remedacen. After my graduation I began an internship in social care, were I helped disabled people. At the same time I went deeper into drugs and took hard drugs nearly every weekend. After a few months I was addicted to heroin. My friend and I drove to Zürich, where we stocked up, and from that point on I shot up (injected heroin) daily.

Pregnant and Addicted to Drugs

My days revolved around supplying myself with more drugs; I even travelled to different cities in Europe to get drugs. Almost all of my friends from my former Gothic-Clique became addicted to heroin. My sisters were shocked because I was unresponsive most of the time. Quite often I got withdrawal symptoms when there was no money or drugs, which of course was extremely unpleasant. I tried as well as I could to complete my internship, after that I started training as a health education nurse at a college.

During this time I got to know my boyfriend. He didn’t take drugs and didn’t like that I took them. We started a drug rehab, but it failed. My boyfriend was so disappointed that he left me. But meanwhile, I had become pregnant. Because of the drugs, my boyfriend wanted me to have an abortion. With the help of codeine I managed, over the next 3 months, to wean myself down to zero. (Codeine is an opiate, which doctors prescribe to try to help addicts.) Nonetheless, even during my pregnancy I started taking drugs again and backed out of my education.

One week after the birth of my healthy daughter I left the hospital. I managed to stay clean for the next 3 months. My daughter had brought joy into my life, something worth living for. It was a new beginning. Then came the first relapse.

It was a new beginning – then came the first relapse

The temptation to take drugs again was simply too strong. After a few months I was again completely addicted to heroin. I went to the doctor for a prescription of codeine. But the codeine was not enough for me anymore, so I continued taking heroin also. The situation now was in many ways more difficult, as I always had my baby girl with me, and I desired a completely different life for her. So I began a hospitalized detoxification and rehabilitation program. After a week in hospital suffering heavy withdrawal symptoms, I backed out of the therapy and immediately injected heroin again. Shortly after, with the help of the drug advice centre, I made another effort and went for hospitalized therapy again, this time in Berlin. This time I managed to temporarily get clean, but still began taking drugs again soon afterwards. At the weekends I went to techno parties (raves) and took cocktails of LSD, speed and ecstasy. To come down from these trips I took heroin and codeine. This was now my second failed supervised rehabilitation attempt. I desperately wanted to stop; but neither the strength of my own will, nor professional medical help, nor even my love for my own little daughter could match the crushing power that drugs had over my life.

The Darkest Hour

I nevertheless tried to get my life in order and started a study of social education. During this time my mother died and I became completely addicted to heroin again, drinking much and regularly. I moved to Munich and experienced a total breakdown – I stopped my studies and took more drugs, got into problems with the authorities, was constantly out and about in the scene. Finally I went to see a doctor and he signed me up for a methadone substitution program. I then got this substitute (14 ml per day was my maximum) and still took heroin at the same time, because with methadone you don’t get the real “kick”. During these years I tried another therapy and managed to live without drugs for 3 months, but then slid back again. The doctor said that I was addicted to multiple drugs and not fit for therapy; severely dependent - a hopeless case. I thought I would take drugs for the rest of my life. I was constantly under the influence of alcohol and took pills – bigger amounts of Diazepam (a medication similar to valium). Diazepam calms you down and cuts you off from your environment, as your environment disturbs you. You just feel “great”, especially in combination with alcohol.

I still tried to live my life and look after my child. Trips to the doctor (to get the methadone) and watching TV were the key events in my life. Through all this time I saw friends and acquaintances from the drug scene die from an overdose of heroin or Fentanyl (plaster). I had always thought this would never happen to me. Like so many others, I thought I would spend the rest of my life taking methadone. But many were mistaken and died, not necessarily through methadone but through additional drugs and pills. It was clear to me that without a dramatic change in my life, it would only be a matter of time until I suffered the same fate.

I fought the addiction to heroin and through many ups and downs I finally managed to be free from heroin after a few years. My methadone dose then was so high that heroin wouldn’t have worked properly anymore anyway. So I only used methadone, which makes you even more addicted than heroin and is much harder to wean off. For the first time I managed to finish a degree as a bookkeeper and was able to work part-time in a little accountant office. 

That was when God brought Franz into my life.

A WAY OUT?

Franz is a hard working craftsman and was a customer of my former boss. When I realised that my boss was taking financial advantage of Franz and was defrauding him, I went to Franz and explained the situation. We both went to the Police and reported him. Through this situation I got to know Franz better and learnt that he was a Christian. He also invited me to a Christian meeting. I liked the friendly and positive atmosphere immediately and I was astonished to hear about the miracles God is still doing in our days. I also learnt about the possibility of getting freed from drugs and addiction through God’s power and read the testimonies from Georg and Jessica, which are also on this website. At this time I took 13 ml methadone daily, drank and smoked heavily. Franz gave me a Bible and in due time I started to read it and even to pray, and I noticed God working in my life. I felt the inner urge to get my life in order with God, to be freed from sin and to start anew.  The desire to live as a Christian grew in me. I read in the Bible that repentance about committed sins is the first step to a new life. MATTHEW 4:17 “From that time Jesus began to preach, and to say, Repent: for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.”

I spoke to God about my transgressions and sins asking him for forgiveness. 1 JOHN 1:9, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive our sins, and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

I knew that baptism meant a new start, that the old life dies and a new one starts.

ROMANS 6:4 “Therefore we are buried with him by baptism into death: that like as Christ was raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.”

         Baptism by Peter and Fabian      

I prayed together with my new friends in the church and I received the Holy Spirit. It was much easier than I thought. When I prayed in my new prayer language, I felt no desire for alcohol nor cigarettes anymore at all. I was completely set free from this addictive craving. I was completely amazed by what had happened. To be honest I hadn't even wanted to give these things up.

The desire for alcohol and cigarettes was gone and never returned. Through the Holy Spirit I received a great inner peace, this meant a whole new feeling, a great relief and liberation that I've never had before. I was totally surprised as I didn't have a lot of faith, but God was beginning to shom me that my new life didn't depend on my own strength, will or abilities, but rather on His. JOHN 8:36, “If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.”

That was my first big miracle with God. I wanted to tell my friends in the scene about my experiences - none of us could have ever imagined this to happen. I was immediately baptized, as the Bible says - under water. It was a great joy and relief for me to know that I was at peace with God and on the right track - I experienced a real, good and persistent feeling of happiness! And this time it wasn’t the result of taking drugs! 2 CORINTHIANS 5:17, "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”

I had thought that after the baptism my drug addiction would also be gone. God, however, had another plan.

Christ is Formed in Me

At first everything was just wonderful. I enjoyed new life with my inner joy and peace. I met my new friends regularly and they helped me practically and with advice. We took trips together and visited some other places in southern Germany and in Switzerland where I became more familiar with the life in Christ.

Unfortunately my methadone addiction was still there. In the 6 months following, I slowly decreased my dosage of methadone from 13ml to 6ml per day. It was really hard and accompanied by various withdrawal symptoms such as physical pain, insomnia, a new inner restlessness, weakness and impaired concentration. I also became doubtful about whether I had gone the right way and sometimes I would increase my dose again. It was a fight! On the other hand, this made me read the Bible more, pray lots in the Holy Spirit and I went to all assembly meetings. God worked in my life. GALATIANS 4:19, "My little children, of whom I travail in birth again until Christ be formed in you," My daughter, by now 18, was happy but also sceptical about the change in me and wondered whether this would be a permanent change. She keenly observed me and came along to our meetings. I got to know God's ways more and more and the need to turn away from sin in any form. Besides this I also learned to ask Jesus for help for all the steps we take on our way.

The Power of the Devil is Broken

My home was filled with many videos and DVDs with horror movies, books on witchcraft and magic and music with clearly anti-Christian content. This was part of my sad and sometimes very dark past. Many people in the drug scene spend their time on dark and occult things. Some profess Satanism or even practise it, others revel in death wish, and many commit criminal, illegal acts. The drug scene is a world full of abysses, wickedness, despair... God doesn't like occult or magical things as you can read e.g. in ACTS 19:19-20. This scripture helped me a lot. I realized that I had to decide. Full of hunger for healing and new life I could not keep things in my life which in God's eyes were not good or wouldn’t honour Him.

After I had destroyed all bad movies, books, records and CDs and had thrown them into the garbage, the atmosphere in my apartment suddenly changed. I could sleep far better. My daughter and several friends also noticed this change in our apartment very clearly without knowing the reason why. It's amazing what kind of influence and power the "powers of darkness" can have, if I’d only known before. This situation convinced me that Jesus' power is much stronger and always for good. LUKE 1:79, “To give light to them that sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the way of peace.”

God Gives Faith

I then read an amazing and well-known book called “Chasing the Dragon” by Jackie Pullinger. The book talks about people who got freed from the bondage of drug addiction through God’s power. Some of them got delivered immediately and on the spot, some of them only after a few days of communal prayer. They all had no withdrawal symptoms. My desire was to be freed from my drug addiction in the same way - that I wouldn’t have any pain or sufferings that people usually experience when they go through a withdrawal. My faith grew and I started believing that I could have the same experience as these people in the book and that Jesus would help going through a withdrawal! I asked my doctor and she said that under no circumstances should I dare to undergo an abrupt withdrawal (ʺcold turkeyʺ).

She said that it could result in severe health complications. Although I understood her concern, I still had a lot of trust in Jesus. I spent a week at my friends place from my church to undergo the entire withdrawal. On the first day, we already reduced my methadone intake from 6 ml to 0.0 ml – in other words, I didn’t take any methadone. To be on the safe side, my friends kept a little methadone in their fridge for me – just in case it didn’t ʺworkʺ. I also had some methadone at my place. I thought to myself that if things got too much, I could just take a taxi and go home. I also thought about keeping a little methadone secretly in my bag in order to take it in ʺan emergencyʺ. After praying, asking God for help and opening my Bible, I read the scripture in EPHESIANS 4:15, in which it says to be honest to each other. This led me to the decision not to do anything secretly.

The first few days, no problems occurred. We were happy and uplifted that I had no withdrawal symptoms. This led me to think that I would be freed very soon and easily. At the same time, I knew that with a methadone withdrawal, the problems only start appearing around the third day.

I begged my friends to give me some methadone

And precisely on the third day, it started. I started feeling physically unwell, uneasy and weak. I was alternatively freezing and then sweating. The battle had begun. While going through these stages, my friends prayed with me in the Holy Spirit, which definitely benefited me. At some point though, I'd had enough. It felt like the prayer didn’t really get us anywhere. It was possible that some people had indeed experienced this miracle of being delivered instantaneously and without pain, but it didn’t seem to work with me. I got to the point that I wanted something, and I wanted it now. Due to the symptoms I was experiencing, I could not care less about anything anyhow and thought that we could have another try on some later occasion. I begged my friends to give me some methadone. Through care and love, they tried to stay strong and not give me anything. It was a real battle for them too as they wanted to make the right decisions and not give up at this stage after having gotten this far. With a heavy heart my friends eventually gave in and went to get me some methadone. These few minutes felt as if they were hours. They gave me a tiny dosage of methadone of 1 ml. I felt a bit alleviated, but also thought that I might never get fully freed from my addiction. 

Then something strange happened. God started to take the situation into his hands.

The success rate of recovering drug addicts is minimal. What’s more sad is that in some cases, after a relapse, the addiction is worse than before. I knew this too well from my five prior attempts to get off drugs. If I didn’t go through with it this time, it would mean a relapse that would take me back not only onto methadone but probably also other drugs. My doctor knew what she was talking about when she told me not to try going cold turkey.

But I didn’t relapse. I am not even sure if that little bit of methadone had any effect at all. I was angry, as it was about one-sixth of my usual dosage at that time, and only one-twelfth of what I used to take about six months ago. It felt like an attack: I was full of unbelief and doubt. My friends however did not give up. They prayed a lot for me during this time. Their love, care, warmth and closeness, and of course, God’s power, which answered all the prayers, brought me through this time. The next day, I took another dosage of 1 ml, the day after that 0.5 ml, after that 0.3. On the seventh day, I once again took nothing at all.

God Cleanses Me

This scripture draws a connection between drugs and witchcraft

During this whole time, I was reminded of a few issues that I had been through in my past. I brought them before God in my prayers and tackled them. For the first time in my life I realized that drug abuse was sin. I wasn’t just a victim of my circumstances or of my past, I was also an "offender" who had contributed to my fate. I really wanted change now, which I couldn’t do by myself. I needed a greater help. I asked God for forgiveness because I had rebelled against him for years by taking drugs. I was sure that God didn’t want me to take drugs anymore. There are a few scriptures in the Bible that speak against drug abuse. For example, it says in GALATIANS 5:20-21, "Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in the time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God." The word ʹwitchcraftʹ is translated from the Greek word ʹpharmakiaʹ. Literally it means ʹdrugsʹ and the word ‘pharmacyʹ, which we also use, is derived from it. This scripture draws a connection between drugs and witchcraft, sorcery and other occult and spiritual practices through which one can find access to a different sphere. One can even have contact with spirits by using one of these means, including the use of drugs. A very similar scripture is found in REVELATIONS 21:8. The word ʹsorcerersʹ is translated from the Greek word ʹpharmakeusʹ. I increasingly began to understand that drug abuse was forbidden by God as he cares about us. He has an even better way for us to get in contact with the spiritual world. He, Jesus Christ, is the way Himself. As Lord and King above all, He says in JOHN 14:6, "I am the way, the truth, and the life…"

In order to help my body with the detox, I made an effort to eat extra healthy during that week by having fresh vegetables and freshly pressed fruit juices and other good things. After the seventh day, I wasn’t taking any methadone anymore. What also helped me immensely on this journey, was listening to some pleasant Christian music. I had been inspired by the story in 1 SAMUEL 16:23 which describes the positive effect music can have on us and our spirit, and I had now experienced it myself.

Free!

Finally, on the eighth day the miracle happened: I woke up in the morning and was completely free of any symptoms. I got up, left my room and walked over to my friends and spontaneously shouted "I am free!!" It was incredible! Everyone rejoiced with me and saw a big, beaming, triumphant smile on my face.  

With clinical methadone withdrawal it usually takes many months until the withdrawal symptoms disappear. Many people relapse as I did in the past, because they just feel empty inside. I now had Jesus in my heart and life. JOHN 14:23, "If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him." This is the huge difference… ! Jesus says in JOHN 10:10, "I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." I can feel this and experience it... I received more from God than I thought, not only freedom from physical withdrawal, but also psychologically. Jesus also says: "I am come a light into the world, that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness." JOHN 12:46

This same day I poured all the methadone which my friends had looked after for me down the sink. Afterwards, I phoned my daughter at home and told her to also pour away all the methadone which I still had in my fridge. I had quite a bit stockpiled at home, including tablets, which I then also threw away.

After the successful withdrawal I went to my doctor in the substitution clinic. He reacted with great disbelief and took a laboratory test. The test results showed that there were no more drugs in my blood. There it was on the certificate ("clean certificate") in black and white: all tests were negative! Now I know that Jesus really sets people free. If we trust Him and act accordingly – then He heals us. Despite my doubts and unbelief, He stayed faithful – He looked at my heart. I am now completely free, I have neither had the physical desire for dope nor the inner psychological urge to take drugs. Instead I have inner peace and joy! Through this I have also learnt that sometimes we need to fight to receive answer to prayer and to obtain complete victory. REVELATION 21:7 “He that overcometh shall inherit all things; and I will be his God, and he shall be my son."

I have now started a new journey through life with Jesus. There are many things for me to learn and to understand, also things which I have to change in my life. To live a “normal” life without drugs is a big challenge at first. It is actually starting at zero and the reality, which I used to escape from through drugs, can sometimes hit me very hard. I look at destroyed relationships, unemployment, lost years, debts etc. One by one I have the courage to tackle these things, to change them, to improve them.  This does not work on my own. Together with my friends in the assembly we have for example renovated my flat, which was already very old and grey from the many years of smoking. Now everything is beautiful and new and I am happy to come home and it is fun to be able to invite friends.

After I reported my boss to the Police, much corruption was uncovered in his life. Later it came to a court case in which I had to give evidence. The court case turned out completely in Franz’s favour and he was reimbursed for his money. The judge praised our attitude and effort and sentenced my former boss for his malice and deceit towards an honest, disabled craftsman who is fighting for his daily bread. Of course I had lost my own job. I wanted to start work again and together with my friends I started job hunting. I was afraid of going to job interviews on my own, I was afraid of being rejected, I was afraid of not coping with the demands. For many years my habit had been to withdraw and avoid daily life. But fellowship with my friends, many positive things which we do together, working with the Bible, prayer – all this is changing me step by step. My self-confidence has already improved a lot. I thought I didn't deserve such a good life.

I used to think that I am too low for my Christian friends; I thought the others would look down on me. Jesus indeed makes everything new! I now have also found work which I enjoy. I am working in mobile health care which can be real back-breaking work. But I enjoy it and I can give a lot to others. I care for old and sick people and can often also pray for them. Some miracles have already happened. One of my patients is an old woman with Alzheimer’s who can hardly remember anything. Since I have prayed for her, she even recognises me again and remembers details of when we met. Slowly my way is leading back to the life which I should have led right from the beginning. I thank God for this.

God’s Strength and Love is Also There for You

Often I go and visit my old friends who I knew when I still took drugs and tell them about God’s power and how God set me free. I hope and pray that many people will experience this amazing miracle and will get to know Jesus Christ. I did not manage it through my own strength, but God helped me powerfully. 1 CORINTHIANS 1:18, “For the preaching of the cross is to them that perish foolishness; but unto us which are saved it is the power of God.”

If You Are in a Similar Situation to the one I Was in: Never Give Up!

Consider the following Bible verses: The scripture in REVELATION 21:8 explains that people who consistently take drugs will have no place in the kingdom of God. In 1 SAMUEL 15:23 we read: “For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of God, he hath also rejected thee...” ... unless you turn around before it is too late. The true sin behind taking drugs is rebellion against God, and God will one day hold us all accountable for our lives.

HEBREWS 9:27, "And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment."

JOHN 3:19-21 "And this is the condemnation, that light is to come into the world, and men loved darkness rather  than light , because their deeds were evil. For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved. But he that doeth  truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.."

Come to the Light, Come to Jesus, Before it is too Late.

I hope and pray that my words will help you. Start talking to God... get to know Him, he wants to help you. You are welcome to write me an email, if you are looking for help, and I guarantee that I will answer! If you live in Munich or somewhere nearby, we can of course meet up face to face.

In Jesus' Love, Sabine.

Postscript

And my daughter? She observed me changing, partly sceptical, partly surprised. She often came to meetings and heard and saw a lot about God and His work. One year after my successful withdrawal from drugs, my daughter turned to Jesus and repented, and received the Holy Ghost and of course was baptised. She said that what impressed her the most was not my successful withdrawal from drugs, but the unbelievable change I went through.

Comments

Hello,
First, I would like to say thank you for your article. It helps me with what I am currently going through. My husband and son constantly prayed for me. 15 days ago, I was on 12 roxi 30mg, 6 roxi 15mg, & additionally 100 mg of methadone every single day. One night, out of know where, my husband said that u have to pray believing u r worthy of Jesus' forgiveness and help. So last month, I began breaking down barriers, I had built up without releasing I had. After to weeks of heartfelt prayers, the song Amazing Grace (my chains are gone) by Chris Tomlinson came to me. And as soon as I played it, I began believing I could do this, and my depression lifted! So that night, 15 days ago, I got rid of all the roxi! N the next day I went down to 80 my of methadone. I have continually went down. Currently, I am only taking 10 mg. I am doing this only because the help Jesus and the Holy Ghost! I wanted to request additional prayer to help me beat this, because I am certain I will! But, I need prayers! Thanks

Who is anonymous and why does he/she have so many post?I'm slung out and have been for about 30 of my 44 years. I've not only tried but actually been addicted to nearly every drug known to man.from weed to LSD to method xanax oxymorphone methadone and currently subutex which is the hardest thing I ever tried to kick. Why would they give you something harder to quit than what you're trying to kick?is this some kind of sick joke?I had everything a man could want and slowly but surely lost EVERYTHING. I was a functioning addict for years now I'm just an addict.plain and simple. Lost my wife and kids,my house my job,all but three family members have died in the past couple of years including my 21 and 27 year old nephews who I raised along with my mother and every time I almost get it together disaster strikes and I have to give it all up for one reason or another that has nothing to do with drugs.the latest being my uncle having a stroke. He has no wife children or siblings, just me.so I had to quit my job. Again. Lose everything. Again. And now I'm taking care of him.if something happens to him I will literally be homeless. Only this time I can't pass a drug test and if I could it wouldn't matter because my drivers license have been suspended and I have a warrant for my arrest and the only thing I know how to do is drive trucks. So now my career is over as well. I sit here all day worried to death about what I'm going to do to support myself while trying not to look worried so I don't stress my uncle out who thinks I do no wrong.my whole life, if you can even call it that, is a joke and a lie.the girls who say they love me are all junkies and can't help me in any way unless its to get drugs.I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired.please help me get my life together or get it over with is the point I'm at.God has never let me down b I feel like I let him down and don't feel worthy enough to ask for help because every time he does, and believe me he has, I have messed it up. My children and grandchildren need my help and I'm not able to because I'm stuck here taking care of my uncle but mainly because I'm on dope and fear that if I did have another good job I will run out of dope and not be able to go to work because of withdrawal and would lose it anyway. Wwjd?

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Your story brought me to tears. I've been a heroin addict for 22 years with failed attempts of sobriety in between. I was on 100ml of methadone for 7 years here in the U.S. but after kicking for 4 months I never touched it again. But this heroin has such a grip on me. I've kicked cold turkey so many times but just can't stay clean. So I am a Christian despite my habitual backslides, I do live in a Christian home and attend church regularly but no one knows my secret. I love God and want so badly to be free. I know my word, and I know God wants me to stop so for the last few days I've been working my way up to quitting cold turkey. I woke up in the middle of the night praying against an evil presence and asking God for a miracle. Couldn't go back to sleep so decided to see if God had delivered others from this hopeless addiction. And then I came across your story. Thank you so much for sharing. And please keep me in prayer. I feel so alone.

I have been addicted to drugs for 20 years and every single night i pray for hours and hours to be delivered from this. I watch video after video and read the bible non stop. I do this every single day. I have been asking Jesus to deliver me every night for about 3 years now and every single day when I wake up I am sick, weak, throw up non stop until I use again. Why wont Jesus heal me from this addiction like so many say. They say Jesus is the answer and I have been a Christian all my life and desire to be at peace and let the lord use me as he wishes to serve him. Yet every day I am not healed. Why isnt the power of jesus or the name of Jesus healing me or breaking these Chains of addiction?? How much longer do I have to pray and beg Jesus to heal me? Why do others simply pray and are healed yet I have done this for hours a day for 3 years and no relief at all. not in the slightest?

Hi, I hope you get this message. I noticed you posted your comment back in July. When I read your comment I immediately broke into tears because I'm in the EXACT same place, my friend. I pray every night. Read the bible everyday. Watch countless videos and documentaries for inspiration. Listen to Christian testimonials of people being delivered. I listen to Christian music. I cry out to God almost every night, audibly. I have my entire family and several friends praying for me. I ask God, with my heart full of fear and eyes full of tears to help deliver me from this horrible affliction or at the very least make the withdrawal bearable for me to overcome, and yet I still feel nothing. I don't feel his presence most of the time and I feel like my prayers are not being heard. I relapsed after several years of being clean after my father died, and have been using street fentanyl now for 9 months. I wish I knew what to tell you my dear friend and fellow sufferer. I want Christ in my life so much and want to serve him the rest of my days. I want to be completely delivered from this nightmare I'm living, but I never get it. I hope someone can help us. Don't give up though, keep praying. Much love - C.

I've been through opiate withdrawals so many times, like you. Not quite 20 years but since 16 years old (i'm now 31) I've dabbled with hydrocodone up until about 22, when I was introduced oxy..Then after a few years of 3-4 30s a day at 20 a pop, I started messing with H snorting it. I was an undercover user and quit on my own cold turkey multiple times. I also quit cold turkey off of 80ML of methadone I was on for about a year, had 25 days with about 10 hours of sleep, it was ridiculous...I got into some new ager stuff that seemed to help me quit for 6 months at a time, but would relapse. Then I hit bottom, started reading the bible...Growing up, I went through the catholic schooling, confirmation, communion, but I never delved into the word myself. I went through the same thing "Why is Jesus not helping, I'm praying, is he not there?". But then I asked one day, from my heart as I hit the bottom so bad and not only did I ask, but I surrendered... I had no where else to go and through surrendering 100% to my conscious mind to Christ it was an act of believing and then I received...ask believe receive.. I did not get immediately cured, but there was a force that pushed me...It wasn't may conscious mind trying to "out-think" the fear and pain of withdrawal but something else...I think many of us addicts never fully surrender and get caught up at the "asking" phase...We must "ask" from the heart, "believe" or surrender to Christ, and then allow our minds and souls to receive what we asked for..it's why AA says we must surrender to a higher power, this is no coincidence. So ask yourself this, have you fully surrendered? Mike

Thank you ,I really needed your story to help push threw,to know it's not to late and god still loves me and will save me

Hi Sabine,
So many sad stories with a common thread. We are addicted and caught in a trap and fear withdrawal. My problem is suboxone. I am a Christian despite this addiction and have been on this drug for about 5 years. The Lord stopped me in my tracks several months ago and told me to stop taking this medicine. The feeling I got was to either stop cold turkey or start decreasing and weaning off now. I have spent these last months trying to obey him and honestly I have been afraid of withdrawal, losing my job, son, & home. But I am thinking I just need to sacrifice it all and if I lose it all then i lose it all. And if I suffer, then i will just have to suffer. The fear of suffering and losing it all is what's kept me from going through the withdrawal. But God always has a better way. I know He has a better way. I'm asking that you pray for the Lord to make a way for me to meet people who can help me thru the withdrawal, that I won't have to lose everything, but if I do, that God will restore me. Ideally, I pray the Lord makes a way for me to be off work for about 30 days, that I am able to care for my son during withdrawal, and that the Lord provides money for my rent while I withdrawal and that I don't lose my job. But those things aren't as important to me as God, so I guess if I must lose it all, I pray that the Lord helps me through it. Thank you

amen! God is why we are here on earth and trusting Him every single aspect of your life is what he wants! do not let Satan scare you into staying where you are. follow the Lord and let him conquer this addiction for you! He will see you through :)

I got all the feels reading your story. I am currently battling this nightmare of heroin addiction . I never though this would be me but here I am in this mess and begging and pleading to get out of it but I am so afraid and do not even know where to start. Reading this gave me hope. God is very present in my life and I know he is calling me to do something and take certain steps. just dont know what.

Thank you so much for your testimony! I'm a 42 ur old mother of 4 and grandmother of 4. I've been on suboxone therapee for 5 straight years and 3 yrs on and off prior to these past 5. I'm also addicted to methamphetamine and use any benzodiazapine when possible,which has been almost daily for about a year. I've been a believer in Christ for over 25 yrs. I became an addict during a time of backsliding close to 20 yrs ago. Recently my husband and I have begun going to church and I have wrestled with the facts that I see it pointless to quit meth and benzos if after reading the horror stories online about the impossibility of quitting suboxone without up to a year of drawn out depression and withdrals. I've been down to 2 mg a day for over 7 months now. I'm an all or nothing person and felt I would rather die than face that suffering. You are the first story I've ever read about God delivering you from methadone, which I've heard is worse if not the same as suboxone. You have given me the strength to at least attempt to. Quit. I woke up before even reading your testimony and gave my husband my bottle with my last week of crumbs of suboxone. I told him to please not give them to me unless I absolutely was not able to cope. I have a 5 year old son and 4 grandsons living with me 8 and under 1 of them is 4 and I take care of him during the day while my daughter sleeps from her night job. I need some serious quick deliverance. Not to tell God what He needs to do , but my fear is having to care for the children is full withdral. Do you have any scriptures I can write and memorize to help me know He is in controls and will get me through this? Thank you so much for sharing your story.

Sheri Leyva
U.S.A.

Dear Sheri,
thanks for your lines. It’s very uplifting for me to hear that you received hope to stop taking suboxone after reading my story. I’m sending you a few scriptures. After my withdrawel it was the gospel of John which I read and uplifted me greatly, when things didn’t run that smoothly. It’s still a well of help for me. It’s very deep and full of love.
I thought about scriptures which I can pass on to you. I prayed also that I can help you further. The first scripture came on my mind more than once:
1st John 1:9
If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
This scripture invites us to do something actively: If you confess your sins and transgressions, even before God, He will forgive you and clean you of all your unrighteousness, as well as drugs. It is a mental principal, to be set free, spiritually and physically, so you will have no depressions after your withdrawal. It is a process and not a one-time thing. The holy Ghost and Jesus will lead you to go this way, the way of liberation.
When Jesus started preaching in the synagogue of Nazareth, he used a scripture/prophecy of the old testament:
Luke 4:18+19
The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor; he hath sent me to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives, and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty them that are bruised,
Luk 4:19 To preach the acceptable year of the Lord.

John 8:12 Then spake Jesus again unto them, saying, I am the light of the world: he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness, but shall have the light of life.

Psalm 27:1 A Psalm of David. The LORD is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? the LORD is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?

John 14:13ff And whatsoever ye shall ask in my name, that will I do, that the Father may be glorified in the Son.
Joh 14:14 If ye shall ask any thing in my name, I will do it.
Joh 14:15 If ye love me, keep my commandments.

Ask your husband to pray together, as it is written:
Mathew 18:19+20 Again I say unto you, That if two of you shall agree on earth as touching any thing that they shall ask, it shall be done for them of my Father which is in heaven.
Mat 18:20 For where two or three are gathered together in my name, there am I in the midst of them.
When you feel pain, please say the following with authority: “In the name of Jesus Christ, pain has to leave my body” In the name of Jesus you command the pain to leave, don’t ask the pain to leave. If spiritual attacks will come, command them away in the mighty name of Jesus.
I hope the scriptures will help you to act accordingly. I will keep you in prayer. The Lord is faithful and will stand by your side.
All the best, Sabine

Hello my name is Freddy I've been an addict now for about a year and I'm still struggling to break free of this addiction.if you all could please keep me and my wife in prayer as we sites to get free. Thank you and God bless.

Hi Sabine,
Thank you for your testimony. It brings me hope. Please pray for my boyfriend and I. We both are active heroin addicts. Every night we both cry out to God to save us from this wretched lifestyle. We are both battling depression. The drugs come between us and cause us to fight. I have a young son that lives w us. I'm scared to death to lose him. I feel like if I don't use to get well I can't take care of him for the day. It is a vicious cycle. I am going crazy. My boyfriend and I decided this weekend will be last day of using(Friday) we will be getting a bible verse tattoo something about overcoming addiction myb finally being at peace. The demons we are fighting are making us crazy. Please pray for us and my child. Thanks syefanie

Really moved by your story, I feel God had his hand in me finding it! I'm in a similar situation, addicted to methadone for 15 years, been praying for help and he lead me to be baptised but I'm still struggling, prayer gives me strength but the withdrawals are so debilitating. I have 4 beautiful children that deserve a drug free happy mother! Please pray for me, your story reduced me to tears xxxxxx

I myself have been an "anything you have" addict since I was 15 years old. I'm now 35 and opiates were my main since I could function while using and I too fell into the methadone trap. I was on 120mgs a day for two years and realized I could not stop after several failed attempts and a couple of overdoses. I was in tears on my knees one night asking for Jesus to help and a voice in my conscious said "stop saying that." I believe that was the enemy speaking. A week later I found myself at an older woman's house just watching after my grandmother. The woman, named Margaret, asked if she could lay her hands on my head and pray and I reluctantly said yes. She started a normal prayer to the Lord to help me and then she finished the second half in tongues and I felt a very good sensation run through me as I repeated his name over and over. Two nights later, it was about midnight, I was asleep and all of a sudden I was in the brightest golden light that you could ever imagine and I couldn't see any forms or shapes nor my body only swirls as if it were moving. I automatically knew every answer to every question ever asked...it was just there and I knew it somehow. I have never come close to feeling the love that I felt..it was so pure and I had no worries and I knew there was not one drop of hate. It was perfect. After about 20 seconds (I think) he said in a thunderous voice,"The Lord Giveth and The Lord Taketh away." I immediately woke up and I was crying like a newborn baby. It was so surreal. I wrote what he told me down on a napkin next to the bed and fell into a very peaceful sleep. The next morning I was telling everyone and they all said I was losing it but I knew it were true. I had never heard that verse before and I found it in the book of Job. He got me off the methadone but I used a few times since and he always reminds me in the most wonderful and unbelievable yet believable ways. You come to realize that he engineers your surroundings to see how you will react or if you'll go above the call for righteousness' sake. The Holy Ghost gives me dreams about things that are going to happen to me now and immediate warnings at times. I can sense people's spirits if they mean well or not. The Lord loves us all and is giving us as a whole so many chances and it seems we are becoming more worldly when we should be becoming more Godly. He has made the impossible possible for me in more than my drug addiction. He is my love and my saviour. Fellow Christians keep your faith strong, go above and beyond to do good deeds just to put a smile on someone's face. They may need that and God is watching those moments. Everyone just love one another it really isn't that hard to do. Even your enemies. Pray continuously and ask God for help any time and if you do it with a sincere heart and good intention, from my experience he'll answer you fairly quickly though not all the time so don't lose hope if it doesn't get answered right away. Fasting (not eating or giving up the flesh to live in the Spirit), repentance and the admission of all your sins and prayer from the heart is what he is looking for I believe. Do all these things in secret... giving, praying, fasting. If not you lose your reward in heaven. I know it's hard not to tell.
"But if our gospel be hid it is hid to them that are lost: In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God should shine unto them." "For we preach not ourselves, but Christ Jesus the Lord; and ourselves your servants for Jesus' sake." "For God, who commanded the light to shine out of darkness, hath shined in our hearts, to give the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Jesus Christ." Thank you so much Lord. You are my true love. -Scott R.

I have been fighting opiate addiction for a few years now I have no idea how I got here. I am a Christian and this troubles
Me so
Much. I have seen a god heal me from mother addictions but I just can't wake up and feel good
Mentally. I had gotten hooked on them because of depression and it helped
So much. But now I am worse then before. Please pray for
Me. If God could just help
Me make it through the the first few days. I want deliverance and I know God can do it. I am weak and can't do it on my own. Please pray for me I feel like this battle has me
At the end of my rope and don't want to fight anymore. Please pray.

my name is tom ,i am 65 years old .in and out of prison and many detoxes over the years . my main concern is the stigmatation brought on by the religious world will have you thinking god left , when nothing can separate us from the love of god in christ. we can very easily feel the pressure to get sober overnight in order to please god, he was pleased when you gave your life to him. beware or the leaven of the pharisees, they dont care!i have been on suboxone for 4 years and am still praying for deliverance but i am not going to think god is mad at me because i wont fix myself we all sin one way or another stop beating yourself up

Hello Tom,
thanks for your honest lines.
I can also find my own thoughts in your lines.
I want to try and give you my own thoughts and feelings about it.

It has been four years now since my deliverance, and I have also gained quite some experience with my Christian brethren. We need to stay in the light and the truth, as Jesus says, and in His Love.

I am sure you know the sermon on the mount where much is said about this subject of judging other people... for instance where he speaks about "the beam in our eyes" or about "what you have done unto the least of my brethren, you have done unto me."
Nobody is totally perfect, and Christians do fail as well. And if anyone judges you harshly, you need to forgive him, because he has already sinned against you.

Tom, what I have experienced is a miracle, I went from 6ml Polamidon to zero in one week. It was a fight that lasted 7 days, and it was a spiritual war. I was not alone, but another Christian, Peter, and another married couple were there and they fasted and prayed a lot for me, drove out demons, because the addiction is accompanied by unclean spirits. These spirits try to dominate your thoughts and feelings. To gain Freedom is a process. Jesus calls it sanctification and it continues. The truth is that there is a number of things I still fight against. I am not a perfect Christian. But I don't give up, I fight every day. I am set free from drugs and smoking. But 27 years of drugs, alcohol, violence and loneliness left deep scars in my life, physically and mentally. Sometimes I notice that others seem to have bad thoughts about me because of my past, or they speak negatively about me behind my back. I sometimes think that I am not as accepted as others, also among Christians in church. But I forgive because then the others have a problem, not me.

There are days where I have the joy of the Lord, and I am led of the Holy Spirit. Then there are days which are heavy, I have pain, am very tired and irritable because I still suffer from sleeping problems. But I love God and Jesus so much, that I keep the relationship with Him, and so speak with Him like with a friend, and God is my father. I trust in Him und I know I am not alone, because he is always there.

There are few Christians which are ready to take a drug addict into their home and help go through withdrawal with him, to fight through with you and love you. You need to be ready for this as well and do your own steps in the faith and trust God and the people He sends you. I would like to do this and take someone in and help them, but so far I haven't met anyone who is ready for that. Because if you want to get free, it takes faith as well and the will to give up the old life.

Tom, I am in prayer for you. And if you don't make it in your life to break free - nobody must condemn you, and there should be no self condemnation, because Jesus didn't teach that. I am looking forward to some more ines from you. May God protect you and show you His way.

Sincerely, Sabine

Thank you for responding. I am shocked at some responses just like, when somebody says 'excuse me'. The world, we know, is very hostile. As Jesus said, 'because sin shall abound, the love of many shall grow cold'. I am on suboxone, and have been for 4 years now. It all started after I was told that I should get epidurals for my back, this is after being 13 years sober. I started back on percs and vicodin and somebody told me I could get help with subs. I knew nothing about suboxone and, in all honesty, have gone on some terrible runs on heroin. I am determined to get off subs. You and I know you cant hang in those circles and stay clean. Yes, there were times I preached in a little storefront church and I loved and put all I had into it. I study the word all the time and never stopped even when using because I knew God's delivering power from past experiences and boy how I need it now! I am asking for deliverance and waiting for direction as I am not so quick to jump at anything that sounds spiritual. I have forgiven but, like David, he hated every false way; and I abhor false teaching and looking back cant believe some of the things I have justified. I do not want to leave this world without making a godly imprint, in other words, I am tired of lukewarmness and long for the way things were with the Lord before. I am weary of all the lies and all the religious rules that I put on myself and looking back can see where this trying to perfect 'self' drove me to despair rather than seeking to be found in the perfect one, Jesus Christ. I refuse to bow down at the wisdom of this world and I am so glad; God works all things to the good regardless of the pain from my back and arthritis. I am sincerely hoping god will 'visit me with his salvation' in the areas I mentioned. I will pray for you also. Thank you ede

I have been addicted to methadone for a couple of years now. Started off just a little now I'm up to at least 80mg per day. I believe in God. And I am tired of being trapped with this drug. I wish I never would of started. Being in chronic pain was the start of it. Then I started getting it from a friend. I have 4 kids who are older and am married. No one knows of this addiction. I do not have support
My husband would be angry and would probably would want to leave me. I don't want my kids to know even though I am a horrible mother since I am good for a few days then I'm down for a few days until I can get more. Withdrawl from methadone is horrible since it takes so long for it even to peak. I also battle depression and exhaustion. I know God can heal. It's so hard to try and figure out to go through withdrawl while taking care of my family.I cry to God often because I have failed Him. I have failed my family. I want to be what HE Wants me to be. Not this horrible person I am now. My whole life revolves around the days I know I will feel good.

Hi. I love your story. I was on methadone for 11yrs I think. About 2 weeks ago, I lost my house. I moved to my parents with my wife and kids. I was on 22mis and tapering. My Parents encouraged me to take a leap of faith and dump it out. We did that. That was 3 weeks ago. It's been very hard, and I've taken supplements, and looked for other things. I've tried medical marijuana, but stopped that. Now, I take some kratom with vitamins. I desperately need a miracle, but won't use methadone again. I go to church, and pray and read my bible, but I think I need to rid if some movies I have. Today I will. I just need guidance and a miracle lol. And sleep. I don't want eternity without God and Jesus. I love Him, and I hope I haven't done too much wrong to be delivered. I don't have the strength. I feel like dying, but I need peace first. What to do? Specifically. I get too much advice from those who don't understand this.

Hello Sabine,
I am in tears reading your testimony. Praise God for the good work He's done in your life. I have lost one brother who was a heroin addict, I have another who looks to be doing a lot better, but the person on my heart at this time is a dear friend. He is only 24 years old. I met him about seven years ago when I was about 23 at a sort of house party at his house before I had given my life to the Lord. I've never done drugs or had any addictions but I was a recreational drinker in those days. Well, he's been in and out of all sorts of programs. I've cried and prayed with him over and over again. I've taken him to visit my church a few times as well. We are friends but we've always shared a romantic connection that has been put to the side because of where he is in his life and where I am. He accepted Jesus years ago and I was amazed to find how much of the Word of God he knew. When he starts speaking of scripture, it just lights up my heart and I see a different person in him. I told him I'll never give up on him turning his life around because we can do all things through Christ. Though I've also told him knowing is one thing, and opening up to a real relationship with Jesus is another. He's on the right track as of now. We found a recovery home where he works and attends meetings. He seems to be doing better but as you know, it can be a long journey so I just continue to try and be a support and encouragement. He's been there just a week now. If you could pray for him, I'd greatly appreciate it or maybe even write him a letter at the facility if you could. His name is Ryan. He seems happy and optimistic so his family and I are just hoping for the best this time. Thank you and God bless you. Susie

Hello Susie, it’s very uplifting to see how you care for Ryan and that you are there for him. I will continue to pray that he will be freed of his addiction. Keep it up and be a sister in Christ for him! God bless, Sabine Hello Ryan, I hope you are doing well. I would love to write a bit about my own experience of becoming free from the addiction and hope this will help you. There are a few points, which are not mentioned in the testimony, as meanwhile 4 years have passed by since I wrote it. A lot of us addicts have not had a good childhood experience. We often suffer from traumas and or have been mistreated by others. This altogether binds us to the negative. We have to lose the negativity through forgiving all of these people before God in prayer and asking the Lord, that we will not look back, but to focus on the present and the future. LUKE 9:62, "And Jesus said unto him, No man, having put his hand to the plough, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God". We should also repent before God of all the things we have done wrong to others and if possible apologise personally. Another advice which I can give is to please keep away from people, who you know are not doing you any good. Here are a few further bible scriptures, which helped me to endure, back then as well as today, because getting free from a life of drugs and addiction is a process. We have a lot to learn.

REVELATION 3:5 "He that overcometh, the same shall be clothed in white raiment; and I will not blot out his name out of the book of life, but I will confess his name before my Father, and before his angels".

REVELATION 3:12 "Him that overcometh will I make a pillar in the temple of my God, and he shall go no more out: and I will write upon him the name of my God, and the name of the city of my God, which is new Jerusalem, which cometh down out of heaven from my God: and I will write upon him my new name".

REVELATION 3:20-21 "Behold, I stand at the door, and knock: if any man hear my voice, and open the door, I will come in to him, and will sup with him, and he with me. To him that overcometh will I grant to sit with me in my throne, even as I also overcame, and am set down with my Father in his throne".

REVELATION 12:11 "And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of their testimony; and they loved not their lives unto the death".

I will keep you in prayer, Sabine

Hi Sabine,

My name Jorge and I pastor a church in Boulder city, NV USA. I was really moved by your testimony. I live in a city where heroin is huge specially in the youth ages. Thank you for sharing its another reference to point at that through the blood of Jesus all Bondage can be broken.

Presently, I am in the same situation you were in. I've been on methadone maintenance program for years. Right now, as I type this, I decided to quit cold turkey. I have been going to church on and off for 5 years. I believe with all my heart that we serve a living God. On the 3rd day the withdrawal worsened. I ended up taking 20mg of methadone to stop the withdrawal symptoms and came up with a better plan. Which lead me to search on the net. I ended up here.
I now threw my faith in Jesus, he will deliver me. Your story is exactly what I needed to hear. In the past few days I've read the bible more than I ever had. And at times felt at peace. I now know, I was of little faith and at times doubted my Saviour. Now, with my strength restored, I will fully trust in Him. As long as I remain in constant prayer, he will deliver me. I'm not giving up anymore. I will beat this in the name of Jesus, I will! Please pray for all his people that he delivers them from this bondage, which comes from the enemy. Greater is He that is in me then he who is in this world.

I am 26 years old I am married with small kids. I have been addicted to drugs and alcohol
Most of my life. I use to drink and smoke pot and take pain pills all the time and then I went to the methadone clinic and have been going there for years taking 100mg of methadone a day. My wife gets upset cause I am on it it cost 12 dollars a day and we don't have a lot I don't have much work right now. I want to get off but I don't know how to without withdrawals I have tried before and had withdrawls. So I went back to clinic after three days. I am not able to go to a rehab and I don't want to be sick so I can work I feel like I will be sick if I don't take it. I drink energy drinks and play lottery ga fanasty five too. I don't know if that is wrong or not. Please help me get off methadone without withdrawls

Hello,
I hope you are doing fine. Are you asking for advice for a methadone withdrawal without any withdrawel symptoms? Please read my testimony again. There you will read that it was faith, along with prayer and fasting that helped me through. Before that I experienced my baptism under water and was infilled by the Holy Ghost. Jackie Pullinger and her book "Chasing the Dragon" inspired me a lot. Search for a good assembly, which can help and which steps in for this teaching.
If you are a Christian, playing lottery is in vain, as God is our Provider and we trust in Him and don't believe in the delusion of gaining riches through any form of gambling.
Methadone can also be reduced bit by bit, while you reduce the dose really slowly, until the end doing that really slowly. This procedure demands high discipline, which I couldn't bring up as I was too weak.
I pray you will get out and off methadone, so you are able to be a good father for your children.
God bless, Sabine

I am 28yrs and have a daughter, 8years of age, and a boy, 9 months old. I am addicted to heroin for 3 years now. So, can you please help me to get free from this evil drugs. I tried many times to get free but I could not. At night time I am thinking that I will not do it again tomorrow, but in the morning when I wake up the withdrawal starts and then I am searching for heroin again. Please, please can you help me. I am from India. 28yrs old

Hello E.,
I'm glad you found my testimony, even from such a faraway country. God indeed lead you that way.
I know your situation, as I also have a daughter and restarted taking heroin, when she was still a baby. I had to stop breastfeeding from one day to the other. I’m well aware of that bad conscience of being a bad mother due to the addiction.
I have prayed to the Lord and will continue doing so. Please search for God in prayer and speak to him as being the good and loving father. Ask him to lead you to Christians who can help you. It’s easier than trying on your own.
The Bible says that once you have repented, having been baptized and have received the Holy Spirit, you are a new creature (newborn like a baby), your sins and transgressions are wiped away. You are a completely new person. Your desire for heroin will be gone. Satan has no power over you, because you become God’s child.
Dear Eichcee, I pray that you are able to start a new life with God without any addition to heroin.
God Bless, Sabine

3years on pain management I never wanted to start because I didn't want to end up addicted to medicine and here I am addicted to oxycodone and im use to taking up to 300mg a day! I don't know how I haven't died from od except by the grace of God I do not want to be dependent on medications anymore, I am a mother with a 15 year old and a 3 month old baby I am asking for prayer as I will no longer have any meds starting tonight. My family is here but I don't think they understand the severity of the situation I was instantly delivered from meth 14 years ago and I know the power of God and prayer because he delivered me from the bandage of meth. So please I ask for prayer as I go into the coming days of battle against this enemy. Thank you

I have read your stories, and am in awe of our living God who comforts us in ALL our tribulation! I am praying that God raises up His people to stand in the gap of addiction. Heroin is running rampant in the US and taking lives by the 100s each day. "This kind can only be driven out by prayer and fasting" and above all LOVE! Fellow Christians, will you stand in the gap? Will you pray and fast for the one God brings you? Will you be used of God in the life of an addict? Say yes to His call.

I came online looking for testimonies of freedom from addiction, and found yours. THANK YOU for taking the time to tell your story. I can't thank you enough for your testimony and I can't wait to share it with one who needs hope for freedom.

YOU GIVE ME SO MUCH HOPE. IM ON METHADONE. AND I CAMT STOP USIMG!!!!THOUFH I WAMT TO, MY MIND CRAVES SMOKING HEROIN ALL THE TIME, AND ABOUT TO GET KICKED OFF PROGRAM IF I DONT PASS A UA IN A FEW DAYS. IVE PRAYED AND PRAYED FOR GOD OR JESUS RO TAKE AWAY MY CRAVINGS FOR HEROIN

Hi . I am 22 and have been battling addiction for about 9 years, starting off with weed, went to ecstasy, to alcohol, to cocaine and now meth. I’ve lost a love, my car, my licence, my respect and confidence. And I cannot loose anything else. Yes I am on a come down right now. I know, he won’t hear the unsober one. But I want good sleep tonight and tomorrow I am going to my family church I have ben away from and the pastor, who led me to Christ and baptised me. Throwing away my pride and asking everyone to pray and help me. Please if anyone is out there reading this, pray for me. God is mad at me and I must wait till I am clear minded. I quit for 5 days and relapsed 2 days ago. I am tired, no energy and have no desire to do anything. Whoever is out there, I am begging you tommorow pray for me. I am like a lost son. Thank u

Praying for you!!! Keep fighting and keep the faith!!!

Praying for you! Just keep going. Never give up.

I have fought to stop using meth, everytime i do it feels like i wanna learn more about god why is that, i came many times to him just when i have done it... I felt his present towards me despite i was on meth.... i cannot believe he does that.. my heart was open... is this the battle you said?

Please pray for our cousin Joey. He is 27 years old and severely addicted to heroin. He has overdosed many times and flat lined (no heartbeat) for 9 minutes. He has been to several different rehab treatment centers and keeps relapsing. He is a son, Aiden, who is 7 years old that he can no longer see due to his drug use and his relationships with his family members have been severed in many cases due to his drug use. He is now facing time in jail or prison due to drug possession. He is not yet a believer. Please pray for his salvation and deliverance. Thank you

I am scared. I want the light that Luke speaks of in 1:79. I find myself alone in darkness and in the shadow of death. Please Jesus guide my feet into peace and Freedom.
Today is day one, I am alone but have Jesus and have rebuked Satan for my mind, body, soul and my home in the name of Jesus!! My fear is the physical pain from pain pills and the emotional pain of flash backs. My Son died of a Heroin overdose a few months ago, I was diagnoised with a disease, had to leave my job, and I have no family. I know I am right where I am suppose to be....I know and believe God almighty can deliver me from darkness. Please will you pray for me....there is power in numbers. My name is Tracy and I live in Seattle, WA. I have no pain pills, I didn't refill any, I am seeking the light and I am begging for freedom. Thank You for going before me and telling me your story in words and pictures....I believe I can if you can. God Bless your heart

Hello Tracy,

I read your comment in regards to my testimony. Right now I am going into prayer for you and I want that you know, that there are some other Christian friends here in Munich praying for you too.

Sorry my English, it is not the best, but I am trying. I want to answer you more deeply and longer. I will do so when I have somebody to translate.

Keep strong and read the Word of God daily and prayerfully - so God will answer prayers.

Love in Christ, Sabine

Thank you so much for sharing your story! I know It must have been an extremely rough journey. I stumbled upon this searching for answers for my addiction to marijuana. I can relate in a way, though without all the physical addiction. But I do have a serious mental addiction that I cannot seem to get over, I was a heavy marijuana smoker since the age of 13 and unfortunately every good memory I have since then is tied with being high making me feel more dependent. I too am a saved and baptized Christian so I continue to pray he will one day take my addiction away. I've always felt so bad and so low for being a Christian and still smoking pot and really think sometimes maybe I’m not really saved if I still struggle with addiction. I've repented and turned it over to God several times and really just felt like giving up. I just get so irritated and depressed and sometimes I just feel completely mentally unstable in ways I can’t even describe after maybe a week without smoking and it just seems to get worse after 2 or 3 weeks instead of feeling better. So, I always end up going back. And it scares me to death the verse you mentioned about drunkards, or people who use drugs not being able to go to heaven and that is why I want to quit. Thank you so much for the encouragement (though I really hate you had to go through all that) Now I know God may not be giving up on me yet, and that I shouldn’t be giving up on him. I started NA the other day so maybe this will be what I need. Thank you so much for sharing! - Tara

Hello Tara,

Thanks for your honesty about your problem with marijuana. I started smoking weed and dope at the age of 13 as well. I gave up on it when turning 35, even before I became a Christian at the age of 39, because the effect was bad, meaning I felt tired, grew lazy, I got delusional ideas und lost myself in contemplating or pondering. That’s why I stopped it.
As you try to give up your addiction, the enemy will attack you with depression, negative thinking and bad mental feeling. I get over these attacks because I take the enemy seriously and fight him. The battlefield is the mind and your emotions. You shouldn’t allow negative thoughts to rule you. Command them away in the name of Jesus Christ. Try to fill your days with lots of prayer and reading of the bible. During my withdrawal the gospel of John helped me lots. Even if you only read for half an hour – it will help you! Try to find nice, uplifting movies and music - nothing should be negative in any way. Go out into nature and ask Christian friends to accompany you through your withdrawal and ask them to pray for you. Spoil yourself with something you like, e.g. a nice meal out with friends or similar. This means you should plan your days for the time of withdrawing. It’s good to work, to have a structured schedule, so no free time is left for the enemy/satan to attack.
A booklet which helped me lots, is “Pulling down strongholds” by J. Osteen. You read how to overcome negative thoughts (which lead to depression) and how to stand against the attacks of the enemy.
All the best for your future and God’s blessing, Sabine

Thank you for this testimony. I ask that you and as many Christian friends as possible to pray for a drug user in denial, who is in grave danger of dying. He started down the Christian path but got diverted and, as you said, there is lots of wickedness and occult in the drug world. Please cover him with prayer so he will be open to getting help and the devil will not interfere.

Hello,

yes, we pray for him. But Jesus is the way and like a door and the evil, Satan have a much bigger door. He have to decide which door he go throw. When he repent, its like the story of the lost son in the bible - god and the angel have joy and he is welcome. Its good for him to have some friends and he know he is never alone. We protect him with prayers and if you want you can also fast for him some days. That is very powerful.
Gods blessings, Sabine

It's 3:30 in the morning and I started searching "Will God deliver me from my addiction".. I've read over a few sites and then came across your story. I'm in tears!! I felt like you were writing stories about my own life and struggles. I cannot thank you enough for your testimony! I love Christ, I love Him so very much yet I fall short of His glory and turn my back on Him. Evil has crept into my life and drugs have opened doors for such evil. I'm praying and pleading the blood of Jesus over me and my home. I struggle with faith, I guess the faith that God can make me whole and completely take away my cravings for any kind of drug. I don't deserve His love or forgiveness, I feel so far away from Him at this point in my life. I wish I could feel his presence... I need faith.. Just to hv faith.. And that is as big of a struggle as many of my other issues. I feel like I'm rambling.. I'm very tired and want to feel Gods peace over me..

This was very nice to read. I have been struggling with opiate addiction and crippling anxiety for many years now. It became apparent to me that I don't have the strength within me to over come this and so I had to find strength else where, in a higher power. I decided to convert to Christianity. I'm still in the early stages, I haven't managed to goto church yet because I have such bad anxiety about going out but I am working on it. Hearing stories like this gives me hope that Christ can help me get through my addiction problems.

Hello Dav,

it is very good to read that you have become a Christian. It is vital no for you to study the New Testament in the bible, because it lyas the foundation to understand also the Old Testament, which both are the complete Word of God (like the bones and the muscles & skin). Please read the bible and pray daily. You may have some questions on various topics, which you can check out on our website. Your prayers, in the Name of Christian, is the mightiest weapon against the devil.
I pray for you, that you can go to the church, because you need other Christians, who teach and help you and also for fellowship.
If you pray and command the anxiety away in the name of Jesus Christ, so you can go out and also to your church.
The book "Chasing The Dragon" from Jackie Pullinger had given me more faith for the deliverance.
So I will keep you in my prayers, Dav.
God will bless you, Sabine

Hi Sabine,
Thank you for your powerful testimony, all glory be to GOD ALMIGHTY. Please pray for my friend David who is struggling with methadone & heroin addiction. Please pray for his deliverance, breakthrough and transformation.
May the Lord continue to bless you and this wonderful ministry.

Kaz

Hello Kaz,

Thank you for your lines. Yes, I pray for your friend David for deliverance and that the LORD will save him. But he also needs friends who will help him to get free. Alone it is too hard. Please look for a Pentecostal church in your town, where they are baptising and praying for people to receive the Holy Ghost, like you can read in the Bible in the book of Acts chapter 2:38 "Then, Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost."

God will bless you and will show you the way. I pray for you,

Greetings, Sabine

Hello, Sis Sabine...
I just read your story of triumph over the enemy of our soul. You don't see many success stories concerning long term drug addiction on the internet, let alone giving God the glory for it.
But what I really appreciate is your advice on what kind of church to look for, the importance of repenting and being baptised in Jesus Name and the necessity of receiving the Holy Ghost. I thank Jesus for your testimony and the many people that will read it.

Please contact me. I am a family man of faith struggling with opiates. USA

You have given me hope where I felt I had none. Thank you. I keep thinking I can't ask God for His help until I can come to Him clean and sober or atleast ready to give sobriety a go - yet I know that ultimately it is He that will cleanse me. I'm just so scared to ask for His help and continue to slip. Reading you story has she'd new light on my own situation.

Hello,

Thank you for writing. When you need God you can pray in every situation. If you repent your sins in a prayer with God (you don`t need a pastor) and ask for help you and he will show you the way.

Mat 4:16 The people which sat in darkness saw great light; and to them which sat in the region and shadow of death light is sprung up.
Mat 4:17 From that time Jesus began to preach, and to say, Repent: for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.

Apg 2:38 Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.

God will bless you, Sabine

Please pray for my 27-year-old son, Andrew, who has been in jail for four months due to drug related crimes. He has four more months to go before he is released. I'm so afraid for him to be released. Our lives have been hell on earth. He started with marijuana when he was 14, then moved on to pain pills and xanax, then progressed to heroin. He overdosed on heroin in April of this year. Please, please pray for his complete deliverance and pray that God will give me peace. I am so afraid of what's going to happen to all of us. I can't go back to the horrible life I've been living for the last eleven years.

Hello Debbie,

I understand your situation and I prayed that you get peace and your son will deliverance from drugs and this way of life.

You have to realize, that you have give up him and his problems to the LORD. Because you can`t help him. Pray that the LORD will protect him. Satan`s plan is to destroy families and it works from generation to generation, victims become offender.

I pray that you get peace. Please pray for your son Andrew every day and that he will get help.

1Pe 5:7 Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.

Bye, Sabine

I have been trying to get clean for 7 years now. I started out in treatment and was on suboxone and then got off it and stayed clean for a year. But, I wasn't ok I was really pretty crazy. I used again and then got on methadone. I've been trapped on methadone now for 6years and feel like I will never get through this. Methadone is such a addictive powerful drug and i'm dependent big time. I'm down from 140mg to 55mg, which is a start. I'm praying for the life of me to be off this stuff some day. I don't want to have to go to the clinic anymore. I can't stand being trapped like this. It's amazing how roped in I feel. If God is willing I hope to be off this stuff by this summer! It's going to be such a miracle if I do it. I can't do it alone anymore. The pain of each dose decrease is crazy. I think it's because I've been on the program so long. When I finally get off completely i'm going to be sure to help others get off. I'm going to use my experience to motivate and encourage others that they can do it also.

Hello Jason,
thank you for sharing your story.
I pray for you that god will set you free from your methadone addiction soon. Everything is possible with God. Addicts, sick and mentally ill people can even liberate God immediately when they repent and be baptized. If you repent on your sins, God will forgive you and you shall be forgiven unto men who hurt you.
John 3: 1 There was a man of the Pharisees, named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews:
Jn 3: 2 The same came to Jesus by night, and Said unto him, Rabbi, we know That thou art a teacher come from God: for no man can do miracles That thou doest thesis, except God be with him.
John 3: 3 Jesus answered and Said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he can not see the kingdom of God.
John 3: 4 Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born When he is old? Can He enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born?
Jn 3: 5 Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he can not enter into the kingdom of God.
John 3: 6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and That Which is born of the Spirit is spirit.
John 3: 7 Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again.
Jn 3: 8 The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is every one did is born of the Spirit. Acts 2:37 Now When They heard this, theywere pricked in Their heart, and Said unto Peter and to the rest of the apostles, Men and brethren, what shall we do?
Acts 2:38 Then Peter Said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.
Acts 2:39 For the promise is unto you, and to your children, and to all that are afar off, even as many as the Lord our God shall call.
Please begin the Bible from the New Testament to lessen. The Word of God will guide you. I wish you the freedom from addiction, that you will get saved soon and peace for a new life.
Bye, Sabine

As I was reading your testimony, I was actually high on pain meds, feeling like this could be the end as my left side of my body started to go numb. I grew up in church as a child, been baptized and was speaking in tounges at one point. I lost my father at 17, from a heart attack in front of me. That's when my world came crashing down. From the age of 15, I was in domestic violence relationships, mentally and started out a little physical. I never told anyone. Then as I grew older, after my father passed, I got with a man who I barely knew and moved in with him. Immediately, the abuse started. He moved me out of state to where I had no family or friends and wasn't allowed to talk to no one. I was in this abuse for 3 years, never knew he was doing meth till one day he did it in front of me. I escaped the abuse when I called my mother the night he told me he was going to kill me. It's been 4 years since then and I am now 25, but once I came back, I started smoking cigarettes a lot more, drinking every day, which I never drank, and started popping and snorting norcos then went to cocaine. I have stopped the cocaine but every once in a while, I still have the urge to do it. Now, I'm just snorting and popping pills almost every day. Tonight was the night that scared me though until I came across your testimony and it really spoke to me and brought me to tears. I used to have a close relationship with God and after reading this, I really want that relationship I once had with him. It's hard to break this cycle but I do know when I am sinning and it does trigger in my mind but I block it off. This is going to be a hard road to get back to but I just ask of you could please keep me in your prayers that would mean so much to. I never reach out like this, but I need the help and prayers because I know God has a bigger plan for me. He always had and always will. Thank you so much for speaking about this. It's hard when you don't want anyone to judge you or to turn to your family and let them know what's been going on in your life and this made it easier for me to wake up and realize the pain I have cause the lord. Thank you.

Hello,

I hope you are well? Please see my answer to your comment below. I prayed for you and also that you come back to the LORD and make a stop with drugs, friends/relationships that are not good for you.
I think of you and I will give you the story of the lost son. I hope it will help you.

Luk 15:11 And he said, A certain man had two sons:
Luk 15:12 And the younger of them said to his father, Father, give me the portion of goods that falleth to me. And he divided unto them his living.
Luk 15:13 And not many days after the younger son gathered all together, and took his journey into a far country, and there wasted his substance with riotous living.
Luk 15:14 And when he had spent all, there arose a mighty famine in that land; and he began to be in want.
Luk 15:15 And he went and joined himself to a citizen of that country; and he sent him into his fields to feed swine.
Luk 15:16 And he would fain have filled his belly with the husks that the swine did eat: and no man gave unto him.
Luk 15:17 And when he came to himself, he said, How many hired servants of my father's have bread enough and to spare, and I perish with hunger!
Luk 15:18 I will arise and go to my father, and will say unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and before thee,
Luk 15:19 And am no more worthy to be called thy son: make me as one of thy hired servants.
Luk 15:20 And he arose, and came to his father. But when he was yet a great way off, his father saw him, and had compassion, and ran, and fell on his neck, and kissed him.
Luk 15:21 And the son said unto him, Father, I have sinned against heaven, and in thy sight, and am no more worthy to be called thy son.
Luk 15:22 But the father said to his servants, Bring forth the best robe, and put it on him; and put a ring on his hand, and shoes on his feet:
Luk 15:23 And bring hither the fatted calf, and kill it; and let us eat, and be merry:
Luk 15:24 For this my son was dead, and is alive again; he was lost, and is found. And they began to be merry.
Luk 15:25 Now his elder son was in the field: and as he came and drew nigh to the house, he heard musick and dancing.
Luk 15:26 And he called one of the servants, and asked what these things meant.
Luk 15:27 And he said unto him, Thy brother is come; and thy father hath killed the fatted calf, because he hath received him safe and sound.
Luk 15:28 And he was angry, and would not go in: therefore came his father out, and intreated him.
Luk 15:29 And he answering said to his father, Lo, these many years do I serve thee, neither transgressed I at any time thy commandment: and yet thou never gavest me a kid, that I might make merry with my friends:
Luk 15:30 But as soon as this thy son was come, which hath devoured thy living with harlots, thou hast killed for him the fatted calf.
Luk 15:31 And he said unto him, Son, thou art ever with me, and all that I have is thine.
Luk 15:32 It was meet that we should make merry, and be glad: for this thy brother was dead, and is alive again; and was lost, and is found.

Luk 15:10 Likewise, I say unto you, there is joy in the presence of the angels of God over one sinner that repenteth.

I will pray for you, that you find the way back.

Greetings Sabine

I org was a pot smoker who had to quit for work. Then I found I had severe neck pains to due herniated or bulging discs. Was prescribed painkillers due to lack of insurance. Over 4-5 I kept getting them til my doctor said see ya. Then I was on my own. Buying on the streets very expensive. I started smoking h eventually at which I was told to go to a methadone clinic. I have been there for almost 3 yrs been weening down 5 mg every other week. Have come from 175mg to 45mg and now the doc slowed my taper to 2mg every other week, I feel trapped and fear it will never end. By the wayfrom 175mg to 45mg I have had littleto no affect at all. I got myself all worked up one time by reading horror stories about getting off meth gotsuper sick then went to the mirror toldmyself it was all in my head went for a walk and was fine. I can do this I will do this I want to do this I will win. Please pray for me as I continue this journey to sobriety. btw since losing everything and going to meth I have kept a job as a caretakerfor 2.5yrs a record for me and am also a college student pursuing a business degree.

Hello Megan,

I read your comment and prayed about it before replying. How did you get on methadone and heroin, now does not matter matter anymore. What counts is the present and your future. If you want to stop it, a complete setting free of body and mind then you need God. And the way to God and heaven leads through Jesus Christ alone. Open up to him, because he has already paid on the cross for your sins. You just have to repent of your sins and transgressions make and indeed in a serious conversation just between you and God. Please, ask him for forgiveness and then start step by step to change your life through following God's Word. Find a church or assembly near you, who baptize by full immersion and preach about receiving the gift of the Holy Spirit, like Pentecostal churches do. Begin reading the Bible every day like a daily bread, fresh and exciting like a novel, beginning in the New Testament, preferable with the Gospel of Matthew.
I pray that our LORD will save you and you will get set free from every drug and any bondage.
Greetings from Munich, Sabine

Sabine, Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. I have been successfully tapering down off methadone. I am down from 175mg per day to 27 mg per day and continue tapering. I hope the taper of the final 27 mg goes as well as the last 148mg taper has gone. I am so nervous as I want this part of my life to be in my past. I wish lots of luck to all who are going through similar situations.

21mg left to taper off of from 175mg. Now my taper has stopped until I see the doctor who is booked for two weeks. Can this go any sliwer. Myfriend is also getting low at 17mg per day but the doc slowed her to taper 1mg every otherweek. If they make me slow to that rate its going to be ten months or more before I am off methadone. I am fed up with them running my life. I am over it. I have had minor minor effects from tapering beingI am losing energy, but that is my normal self so not a worry at all. I sometimes wonder if I just stopped now if I would make it. I have no desire to ever do this to myself again.I still get sugar cravings and keep gaining weight and am sweaty just thinking about sweat. I cannot wait for this to be over.

I just wanted to check in with you all. I have been tapering off methadone from 175mg. I am happy to report I am now at 7 mg. I am tapering 2mg every other week until 0mg. I haven't had any problems with the taper. It has been quite easy thanks to all of your posts and responses. I have truly found God as he has been helping me through this journey. I pray for all of you who are going through the same type of situation. Be strong, think positive we can all do it together.

Thank you so much for your testimony! It really helped me feel not so alone:)

THANK YOU FOR SHARING YOUR STORY. YOU HAVE GIVEN ME RENEWED HOPE THAT JESUS WILL SET MY SON FREE FROM HEROIN. THE DRUG IS OF THE DEVIL. BUT THANKS BE TO OUR GOD, HE HAVE OVERCOME THE WORLD AND ALL THE POWERS OF THE EVIL ONE BY HIS DEATH AND RESURRECTION. AMEN.

MY SON IS ADDICTED TO HEROIN FOR THE PAST YEAR. HE IS 26, AND HAS BEEN IN AND OUT OF REHABS. NOTHING STICKS. LAST TIME HE WENT 4 MONTHS IN "TEEN CHALLENGE" BUT AFTER 1 MONTH OUT HE RELAPSED AND WAS WORSE THAN EVER. I HAD ALMOST GIVEN UP HOPE BUT BECAUSE I AM ALSO A BELIEVER AND BORN AGAIN, FILLED WITH THE HOLY SPIRIT, I SAY I CANNOT GIVE UP BECAUSE GOD DOES NOT GIVE UP..... IT'S SO SO HARD, BUT PLEASE PRAY FOR MY SON TO BE SET FREE. IT IS THE DEVIL THIS DRUG HEROIN. PLEASE PRAY, AND I RECALL THE SCRIPTURE IN MATT 18 "WITH GOD ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE".

Hello,
It is very hard for a mother to see how her son addicted to heroin. This drug is really the tool of the devil, of course this includes all other drugs as well. For everything there is a time, especially if we fight through in prayer for healing and deliverance. The Lord set me free after 20 years. I will pray for your son that he is freed and released from heroin very soon. God bless you, greetings, Sabine

What a journey!! I recently found out that my brother has a canabis addiction and that he believes that it is part of him and therefor unable to stop. apparently he started at 13 and now is 35.. I am so sad and beside myself.. He hides his addiction and works a lot. God only knows how he has maintained to keep his job for this long! I pray that the Lord with save my brother from darkness and to give us strength and protection in Jesus holy name. Please include us in your prayers and thank you for sharing .. Be blessed

Hello,
I am praying that the Lord sets your brother free from cannabis and that he finds the Lord and will get saved. However, it is good that he works a lot and has a job, otherwise he would probably slip even more. Your brother has also a friend in you, a person who he can trust. But the most powerful weapon against the enemy is our prayer in Christ's name. God also bless you ... .Greetings, Sabine

My son. 43, has been on heroin, coke etc over 35 years and has destroyed my life a hundred times over, ending up with terminal heart failure.life's been torture for me. his mother left me when he was only 8 years old. i will not help him anymore. He has abused God's goodness and the love and goodness of everybody in his life. abused his wife and little son of 2 years of age. All the money goes to drug pedlars. so i will never help him again.I was a pastor and he destroyed my minisry too by taking away all my tithes and offerings. Past year he has even taken my food and medicine money and at age 74 I am forced to go back to work again to make ends meet. i think God cannot work in his life because he does not want change.He has become the worst confidence trickster I have ever known in my life. He recently made another girl pregnant but I think the Lord caused a miscarriage or it could have been a false alarm because she had missed her periods for nearly ten days. I had to pay a large sum of money for the gynecologists charges.Never more will I have compassion because he simply exploits and abuses all love and compassion.But I feel the Lord might hear your cry and answer positively even at this late stage if you pray for him. Iam very sick and unable to go on with his demands and schemes anymore and have severed all contact with him.I can't even pray for him any more. I have now abandoned him to God's care alone. Can I as a last resort beg of you to pray for him ? His mother and sister broke contact with him some time ago too. 27 years, to be exact has been too much for all of us. he had even used his infant son's milk money for heroin until his wife kicked him out. That little fellow, my only grandson, has never had a father' love or presence. Would you please pray for him. And I would deeply appreciate hearing from you by email because doctors don't give me very long to live. Please reply.May Jesus use you mightily.

Hello,
Your lines touched me very much, because while reading I always had to think about the topic of “Forgiveness” and also about the “prodigal son” in the gospels. Please forgive him, but don’t let yourself get hurt any longer. There is a way to forgive and back away from him at the same time. If he keeps on taking heroin and other drugs and doesn’t show any repentance, this will cost you lots of strength, love and even your faith. You can forgive and pray for him, keeping distance. The LORD will hear your prayers, but your son has to decide for God himself. I will pray for you, your son and grandson.
It would be nice to hear from you, how God answered your prayer request and how the story progresses. Can you please let me know which country you live in and your son’s name? This will help me to keep him in prayer. The LORD is full of love and compassion, especially for people like your son and the millions of addicts and imprisoned out there in the world.
God Bless, Sabine

wanted to ask prayers for my husband. He has been addicted to opiates for 6 years. Started out with pain pills and then 3 years in methadone, the last 6 months have been heroin. He went through a detox and then left after that. He came home and was clean for a few weeks then started back up. not as extreme but still, back to the addiction. He decided he was ready for in patient. He humbly went back to the rehab he walked out on. He is on day 3 in there. He can not have phone calls or visitors for 2 weeks. It's so hard to be able to talk to him. He is one to give up easily when things get tough(or not his way). I have prayed and prayed for God to move in him. I fall on my face and plead for God to save him! To reveal himself and comfort him. My husband only needs to surrender and God will be right there! please pray for him. Pray he surrenders and is healed! I want my husband back! I dig and read too much of the statistic and even your story scares me that he won't make it through this and I will still be alone and heartbroken again. I know God is able and I know he can restore! Please pray my husband makes it through this and is healed!

Hello Patti,
I pray for your husband that he is free of his addiction, especially for this withdrawal. It is important for you that he is free, because you are suffering greatly from this situation Patti. It is important that you also are looking after yourself. Therefore, I will pray for you as well.
We have to obey our Lord and the Bible is the Word of God, advising us how to. My walk with the Lord began through repentance, baptism and receiving the Holy Ghost, as it says in Acts 2:38.
Then Peter said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost.

Often people with illnesses and addictions are free after baptism without physical withdrawal symptoms and remain free as long as they follow the Lord.

Dearest greetings,
Sabine

Please pray for me.

Hi Marianne,
I pray for you every day and gave also your prayer request to my brothers and sisters in the assembly further.
I pray that the Lord will help you send, howsoever may look.

God bless you, Sabine

I am so moved by your testimony. I my self am fighting with methadone my detox will start in June 20th that day I will be taking my last 20mg I have been in need of a closer relationship with the Lord I tend to leave his loving presents I am not as mobile as I can do to the methadone and my help.I weigh 320lb so we don't have a car so I just don't get out so I have no friends my husband is great but I need some Christian friends it's so hard. To not be able to go to church. I just hope people like you and you're friends will pray for me.it's great to hear you're story and no God still loves me.THANK YOU charmarie

Hello Charmarie,
thank you that you have responded to my testimony. Our Lord has not forgotten you. I myself have to struggle with being overweight - this fight is not yet won, but with methadone and drugs has the LORD won for me. I pray that you will all your life to Jesus passed, repent, be baptized and receive the Holy Spirit. Just as it says in the Bible: Acts 2:38 "Then Peter Said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost . " Charmarie, please search Christians close to you that can help you directly. Where do you live? Perhaps there is an assambly group in your area with Spirit-filled Christians who are willing to go the way together with you. I pray for you and I wish you with all my heart to be set free and receiving the peace of the Lord
Greetings Sabine

I came across this site looking for an answer about Jesus and my horrific drug & cigarette addiction and it sounded like my story with the exception of I was given my last rights and then ended up in a rest home having to learn to walk, talk, totally rehab. I am asking for prayers that I can quit using opiates and quit smoking my lungs are getting very bad with C.O.P.D. and emphysema. I want to live and finish my Masters degree in counseling to help others but first I need to get clean before I die. I am 54 yrs. old and merely exist, never getting dressed (rarely). I just stay in my house with the T.V on for noise. I have quit living and am praying for help to start to live life and find joy. Thanks for letting me share.

Hello Cindy,
The Lord has led you to our website to show you the way. I work as a nurse with old and very sick people and visit them in their homes. The question is: Are you looking for God because you would like to be his child and want to get saved, or are you only seeking God for the cure? Would you like to receive Jesus forever in your life or do you want that Jesus helps you out to have a new life without giving up on your old habits?

The key is, you need, first of all salvation to receive a new life by repenting of past sins, baptism completely under water and in the Holy Spirit as in John 3 (Bible) as Jesus explained to Nicodemus: Nicodemus is a Pharisee and visited Jesus to ask him how to get eternal life and be saved from a sinful life.

"John 3: 1 There was a man of the Pharisees, named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews:
Jn 3: 2 The same came to Jesus by night, and Said unto him, Rabbi, we know That thou art a teacher come from God: for no man can do miracles That thou doest thesis, except God be with him.
John 3: 3 Jesus answered and Said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he can not see the kingdom of God.
John 3: 4 Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born When he is old? Can He enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born?
John 3: 5 Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he can not enter into the kingdom of God.
John 3: 6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and That Which is born of the Spirit is spirit.
John 3: 7 Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again.
Jn 3: 8 The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is every one did is born of the Spirit. "

Cindy, take this literally and then miracles and healings will follow. Look for Spirit-filled Christians who help you in works as well. If you answer me (on my private e-mail address) and write where you live, I can help you to look for serious Christians.

I pray that you find salvation and healing in a new life in the Lord.

God bless you, Sabine

Dear Cindy,

Jesus died for our sins once. Even if you do not feel differently after your baptism by this Indian revival preacher than before, we shouldn’t get a second (re-)baptism according to the Bible.

Rom 6: 1 What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, That Grace May Abound?
Romans 6: 2 God forbid. How shall we, indeed, are dead to sin, live any longer Therein?
Romans 6: 3 Know ye not, did so many of us as were baptized into Jesus Christ were baptized into his death?
Rom 6: 4 THEREFORE we are buried with him by baptism into death: so did like as Christ which raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father even so We Should walk in newness of life.
Romans 6: 5 For if we havebeen planted together in the likeness of his death, we shall be so in the likeness of his resurrection:
Romans 6: 6 Knowing this, our old man is crucified did with him, did the body of sin might be destroyed, did not serve sin henceforth We Should.
Rom 6: 7 For He that is dead is freed from sin.
Rom 6: 8 Now if we be dead with Christ, we believe That we shall so live with him:
Rom 6: 9 Knowing That Christ being raised from the dead dieth no more; death hath no more dominion over him.
Rom 6:10 For in fact he died, he died unto sin once: but in fact he liveth, he liveth unto God.
Rom 6:11 Likewise reckon ye yourselves to be dead indeed therefore unto sin, but alive unto God through Jesus Christ our Lord.

Baptism is the first step into a new life. Before you get baptized, you should repent before God of things in your past life, which you regret and are sorry for. You should forgive people who have hurt you. This is an ongoing process in the relationship with God. The progressive development as a Christian is the same. We are to be like Jesus. Therefore you have get to know Jesus and God by reading the Bible, pray to God and build up a relationship by talking to him in the Spirit and he answers through His Spirit.
It will not be easy because our opponent, Satan comes to stop us and surrounds us to deceive us with false and negative thoughts and also with disease.
My experience in recent years in the deliverance ministry is that it is very hard to manage to get free from the drug alone especially when an addiction with opiates exists. It's hard to help you, best would be to pray and fight with you, spend time with you in person. It is therefore important for you to find Christians in Butte who are willing to help you to free yourself. You should look for a Pentecostal church that teaches the Bible and visit them regularly. Read the Bible every day and start with the New Testament.
I will continue to pray for you, Cindy.
God bless you, Sabine

The Lord led me to your testimony as I was battling with a smoking addiction, your words completely set me free and I was prompted to share some of what you said with my mother who like me is a Christian but battles with addiction to alcohol and cigarettes. All I want to say is The Lord used your testimony to bless me beyond belief and I live on the other side of the world! God bless you Sabine!! X

Hello,
thank you for your lines. It`s very uplifting for me to hear how God works with this testimonie. Thank you for sharing it with familie and friends.
I pray your mother get deliverance from cigarettes and alcohol. Please say greetings to her and that she please will reading the bible every day and praying.
God bless you, Greetings Sabine

Please pray for my deliverance of a 11 year methadone addiction. This is not the first time I have tried. I am in a desperate state and I really need your prayers. Please pray

Hello,
I don`t know your name but I prayed for you and I will keep you in prayer that you find deliverance and get saved in a new life in Jesus Christ. I pray that you find good christians who can help you. God bless you and he wil showes you the way to HIM.
Greetings, Sabine

Hello Tori,

I am delighted that your friend is saved. You've written a lot, so it was not able to be uploaded on the website.

I try to answer your questions.
Why did your friend not withdrawal and you after receiving the Holy Spirit? The Lord works with everyone else. If not, it is the same. My withdrawal from methadone was not gone after the water baptism and receiving the Holy Spirit, but cigarette smoking and alcohol drinking. The methadone withdrawal we started only seven months later, and it took 7 days to the final liberation came. I was not alone but with brothers and sisters from my assembly who prayed for me, and fasted.
My advice is to go to the assembly/church where your friend and his brethren were rescued and freed. I think they do a good job in the set-free Minestry.
If you are seriously and permanently freed want, then you need to keep God's commandments. That's the reason why your friend can not be with you. God's commandment is that man and woman are together in the form of marriage. Everything else is unfortunately fornication. Many people today do not realize because it makes almost everyone.
Another reason is probably that your friend wants to protect also against drugs, since you're still substituted.
Please begin to read the Bible in the New Testament and ask the assembly/church of (were your friend is) to help you. You should speak with your friend and tell him that you need more help for your liberation.
I pray for you Tori, stay strong and trust in the LORD.

Sabine

hi there, im a heroine drug addict and i want to stop asap. my parents and close friends dont know about this. i want to change my life and not sin anymore with this evil drug and alcohol. i sometimes pray to god to help me and ask for him to guide me to the correct path with god in my life and drug and alcohol free life. could you please help me and pray with your friends to give this evil drug up. i believe that god will help me mentally and physically. next time you pray, please have me in your prays and help me. thank you for you time in reading this and i cant wait to be drug free and have god in my life.

Hello,
I have passed on your prayer request to my Christian friends and I hold you in my prayers.
You do not write where you come from. Is there with you Spirit-filled Christian communities? If so, then try to make contact because it alone to create away from the addiction is hard.
It is also good that you have begun to seek the LORD. Do it on and it will help. Learn to know Jesus by you begin to read the Bible, beginning in the New Testament.
Greetings Sabine

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