Freed after 20 Years of Heroin and Methadone Addiction

Sabine - Munich, Germany

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A New Attempt

On the third day the withdrawal symptoms started. I was sitting in the nice, bright and clean flat of my new Christian friends, surrounded by a group of people who believed that Jesus could help me to overcome my 20 years of heroin and methadone addiction. Like many other addicts, I had tried countless times to quit. I had tried heroin substitutes like codeine and methadone, but these just hooked me even more. I had tried stopping drugs "cold turkey" scores of times, five times under professional medical observation in hospitals. Nothing could keep me away from drugs. When my GP classified me a hopeless case, I knew that I would die a drug addict, just as many of my friends had done before me.

But then I met Franz and his Christian friends, who told me that God can help, and that Jesus is willing and able to set people free from any kind of evil power – even today! I believed what they said, that Jesus would take away any pain, and decided to give it a shot. So here we were, this small group of Christians full of faith and myself, gathered together in a flat to ask God to comply with my last remaining hope. And during the first two days it was great!

Then the agitation started. The cravings and physical pain that only a drug addict understands. We prayed. We sang. We did gymnastic exercises. We went for walks in the fresh air. Eventually any movement became difficult. Nothing really helped. I had thought that the situation would just pass by if we kept praying together, but it didn’t work. I knew that my friends had my methadone and I wanted it. I asked them to give it to me, I pleaded; they wanted me to hang on. I wanted to give in. Escape. I still had a little "stash" saved in my fridge at home; I had to get away and take a taxi there right now. I knew the withdrawal symptoms only too well, and I knew that I just couldn't go through it again. I was a loser and I knew it. Maybe I just didn’t have enough faith? Maybe I had sinned too much? Maybe God didn’t have enough power to break through something as powerful as a methadone addiction? My friends tried to talk me out of it, encouraged me to pull through, but in the end, they knew they couldn’t force me. Peter went downstairs to get the methadone. There really was no hope.

A Hopeless Case

A doctor will only classify someone as a hopeless case after a long career of drug addiction, and I was the perfect example. At 13, out of curiosity, I started to smoke cigarettes and then hash; I wanted to belong to this group of juveniles in my area (Bavaria) – punks, Goths and others. We listened to New Wave and Gothic music and went to the discos, where we boozed and toked until we had to vomit. During this time I left home. I moved to my Gran's place, who was old and couldn’t look after herself anymore, to care for her. This way I had more liberty and could stay out for nights on end.

After a few months I was addicted to heroin

At the age of 15 I started with speed and LSD which I got from a friend. During the day I was the well-behaved daughter, studying for school and passing my final exam well, but in the evening I was ferocious and wild, a ‘Gothic Girl‘. At 17 I tried heroin for the first time and also cocaine, which I then took frequently. I smoked marijuana and of course continued drinking alcohol. At my parents' home the problems increased. There were arguments and fights. The constant clashes left me very unhappy, even my grades started getting worse. I wanted to get out of this situation, so I started taking different types of sleeping and depression tablets, for example Rohypnol, Medinox, and Remedacen. After my graduation I began an internship in social care, were I helped disabled people. At the same time I went deeper into drugs and took hard drugs nearly every weekend. After a few months I was addicted to heroin. My friend and I drove to Zürich, where we stocked up, and from that point on I shot up (injected heroin) daily.

Pregnant and Addicted to Drugs

My days revolved around supplying myself with more drugs; I even travelled to different cities in Europe to get drugs. Almost all of my friends from my former Gothic-Clique became addicted to heroin. My sisters were shocked because I was unresponsive most of the time. Quite often I got withdrawal symptoms when there was no money or drugs, which of course was extremely unpleasant. I tried as well as I could to complete my internship, after that I started training as a health education nurse at a college.

During this time I got to know my boyfriend. He didn’t take drugs and didn’t like that I took them. We started a drug rehab, but it failed. My boyfriend was so disappointed that he left me. But meanwhile, I had become pregnant. Because of the drugs, my boyfriend wanted me to have an abortion. With the help of codeine I managed, over the next 3 months, to wean myself down to zero. (Codeine is an opiate, which doctors prescribe to try to help addicts.) Nonetheless, even during my pregnancy I started taking drugs again and backed out of my education.

One week after the birth of my healthy daughter I left the hospital. I managed to stay clean for the next 3 months. My daughter had brought joy into my life, something worth living for. It was a new beginning. Then came the first relapse.

It was a new beginning – then came the first relapse

The temptation to take drugs again was simply too strong. After a few months I was again completely addicted to heroin. I went to the doctor for a prescription of codeine. But the codeine was not enough for me anymore, so I continued taking heroin also. The situation now was in many ways more difficult, as I always had my baby girl with me, and I desired a completely different life for her. So I began a hospitalized detoxification and rehabilitation program. After a week in hospital suffering heavy withdrawal symptoms, I backed out of the therapy and immediately injected heroin again. Shortly after, with the help of the drug advice centre, I made another effort and went for hospitalized therapy again, this time in Berlin. This time I managed to temporarily get clean, but still began taking drugs again soon afterwards. At the weekends I went to techno parties (raves) and took cocktails of LSD, speed and ecstasy. To come down from these trips I took heroin and codeine. This was now my second failed supervised rehabilitation attempt. I desperately wanted to stop; but neither the strength of my own will, nor professional medical help, nor even my love for my own little daughter could match the crushing power that drugs had over my life.

The Darkest Hour

I nevertheless tried to get my life in order and started a study of social education. During this time my mother died and I became completely addicted to heroin again, drinking much and regularly. I moved to Munich and experienced a total breakdown – I stopped my studies and took more drugs, got into problems with the authorities, was constantly out and about in the scene. Finally I went to see a doctor and he signed me up for a methadone substitution program. I then got this substitute (14 ml per day was my maximum) and still took heroin at the same time, because with methadone you don’t get the real “kick”. During these years I tried another therapy and managed to live without drugs for 3 months, but then slid back again. The doctor said that I was addicted to multiple drugs and not fit for therapy; severely dependent - a hopeless case. I thought I would take drugs for the rest of my life. I was constantly under the influence of alcohol and took pills – bigger amounts of Diazepam (a medication similar to valium). Diazepam calms you down and cuts you off from your environment, as your environment disturbs you. You just feel “great”, especially in combination with alcohol.

I still tried to live my life and look after my child. Trips to the doctor (to get the methadone) and watching TV were the key events in my life. Through all this time I saw friends and acquaintances from the drug scene die from an overdose of heroin or Fentanyl (plaster). I had always thought this would never happen to me. Like so many others, I thought I would spend the rest of my life taking methadone. But many were mistaken and died, not necessarily through methadone but through additional drugs and pills. It was clear to me that without a dramatic change in my life, it would only be a matter of time until I suffered the same fate.

I fought the addiction to heroin and through many ups and downs I finally managed to be free from heroin after a few years. My methadone dose then was so high that heroin wouldn’t have worked properly anymore anyway. So I only used methadone, which makes you even more addicted than heroin and is much harder to wean off. For the first time I managed to finish a degree as a bookkeeper and was able to work part-time in a little accountant office. 

That was when God brought Franz into my life.

A WAY OUT?

Franz is a hard working craftsman and was a customer of my former boss. When I realised that my boss was taking financial advantage of Franz and was defrauding him, I went to Franz and explained the situation. We both went to the Police and reported him. Through this situation I got to know Franz better and learnt that he was a Christian. He also invited me to a Christian meeting. I liked the friendly and positive atmosphere immediately and I was astonished to hear about the miracles God is still doing in our days. I also learnt about the possibility of getting freed from drugs and addiction through God’s power and read the testimonies from Georg and Jessica, which are also on this website. At this time I took 13 ml methadone daily, drank and smoked heavily. Franz gave me a Bible and in due time I started to read it and even to pray, and I noticed God working in my life. I felt the inner urge to get my life in order with God, to be freed from sin and to start anew.  The desire to live as a Christian grew in me. I read in the Bible that repentance about committed sins is the first step to a new life. MATTHEW 4:17 “From that time Jesus began to preach, and to say, Repent: for the kingdom of heaven is at hand.”

I spoke to God about my transgressions and sins asking him for forgiveness. 1 JOHN 1:9, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive our sins, and cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”

I knew that baptism meant a new start, that the old life dies and a new one starts.

ROMANS 6:4 “Therefore we are buried with him by baptism into death: that like as Christ was raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father, even so we also should walk in newness of life.”

         Baptism by Peter and Fabian      

I prayed together with my new friends in the church and I received the Holy Spirit. It was much easier than I thought. When I prayed in my new prayer language, I felt no desire for alcohol nor cigarettes anymore at all. I was completely set free from this addictive craving. I was completely amazed by what had happened. To be honest I hadn't even wanted to give these things up.

The desire for alcohol and cigarettes was gone and never returned. Through the Holy Spirit I received a great inner peace, this meant a whole new feeling, a great relief and liberation that I've never had before. I was totally surprised as I didn't have a lot of faith, but God was beginning to shom me that my new life didn't depend on my own strength, will or abilities, but rather on His. JOHN 8:36, “If the Son therefore shall make you free, ye shall be free indeed.”

That was my first big miracle with God. I wanted to tell my friends in the scene about my experiences - none of us could have ever imagined this to happen. I was immediately baptized, as the Bible says - under water. It was a great joy and relief for me to know that I was at peace with God and on the right track - I experienced a real, good and persistent feeling of happiness! And this time it wasn’t the result of taking drugs! 2 CORINTHIANS 5:17, "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.”

I had thought that after the baptism my drug addiction would also be gone. God, however, had another plan.

Christ is Formed in Me

At first everything was just wonderful. I enjoyed new life with my inner joy and peace. I met my new friends regularly and they helped me practically and with advice. We took trips together and visited some other places in southern Germany and in Switzerland where I became more familiar with the life in Christ.

Unfortunately my methadone addiction was still there. In the 6 months following, I slowly decreased my dosage of methadone from 13ml to 6ml per day. It was really hard and accompanied by various withdrawal symptoms such as physical pain, insomnia, a new inner restlessness, weakness and impaired concentration. I also became doubtful about whether I had gone the right way and sometimes I would increase my dose again. It was a fight! On the other hand, this made me read the Bible more, pray lots in the Holy Spirit and I went to all assembly meetings. God worked in my life. GALATIANS 4:19, "My little children, of whom I travail in birth again until Christ be formed in you," My daughter, by now 18, was happy but also sceptical about the change in me and wondered whether this would be a permanent change. She keenly observed me and came along to our meetings. I got to know God's ways more and more and the need to turn away from sin in any form. Besides this I also learned to ask Jesus for help for all the steps we take on our way.

The Power of the Devil is Broken

My home was filled with many videos and DVDs with horror movies, books on witchcraft and magic and music with clearly anti-Christian content. This was part of my sad and sometimes very dark past. Many people in the drug scene spend their time on dark and occult things. Some profess Satanism or even practise it, others revel in death wish, and many commit criminal, illegal acts. The drug scene is a world full of abysses, wickedness, despair... God doesn't like occult or magical things as you can read e.g. in ACTS 19:19-20. This scripture helped me a lot. I realized that I had to decide. Full of hunger for healing and new life I could not keep things in my life which in God's eyes were not good or wouldn’t honour Him.

After I had destroyed all bad movies, books, records and CDs and had thrown them into the garbage, the atmosphere in my apartment suddenly changed. I could sleep far better. My daughter and several friends also noticed this change in our apartment very clearly without knowing the reason why. It's amazing what kind of influence and power the "powers of darkness" can have, if I’d only known before. This situation convinced me that Jesus' power is much stronger and always for good. LUKE 1:79, “To give light to them that sit in darkness and in the shadow of death, to guide our feet into the way of peace.”

God Gives Faith

I then read an amazing and well-known book called “Chasing the Dragon” by Jackie Pullinger. The book talks about people who got freed from the bondage of drug addiction through God’s power. Some of them got delivered immediately and on the spot, some of them only after a few days of communal prayer. They all had no withdrawal symptoms. My desire was to be freed from my drug addiction in the same way - that I wouldn’t have any pain or sufferings that people usually experience when they go through a withdrawal. My faith grew and I started believing that I could have the same experience as these people in the book and that Jesus would help going through a withdrawal! I asked my doctor and she said that under no circumstances should I dare to undergo an abrupt withdrawal (ʺcold turkeyʺ).

She said that it could result in severe health complications. Although I understood her concern, I still had a lot of trust in Jesus. I spent a week at my friends place from my church to undergo the entire withdrawal. On the first day, we already reduced my methadone intake from 6 ml to 0.0 ml – in other words, I didn’t take any methadone. To be on the safe side, my friends kept a little methadone in their fridge for me – just in case it didn’t ʺworkʺ. I also had some methadone at my place. I thought to myself that if things got too much, I could just take a taxi and go home. I also thought about keeping a little methadone secretly in my bag in order to take it in ʺan emergencyʺ. After praying, asking God for help and opening my Bible, I read the scripture in EPHESIANS 4:15, in which it says to be honest to each other. This led me to the decision not to do anything secretly.

The first few days, no problems occurred. We were happy and uplifted that I had no withdrawal symptoms. This led me to think that I would be freed very soon and easily. At the same time, I knew that with a methadone withdrawal, the problems only start appearing around the third day.

I begged my friends to give me some methadone

And precisely on the third day, it started. I started feeling physically unwell, uneasy and weak. I was alternatively freezing and then sweating. The battle had begun. While going through these stages, my friends prayed with me in the Holy Spirit, which definitely benefited me. At some point though, I'd had enough. It felt like the prayer didn’t really get us anywhere. It was possible that some people had indeed experienced this miracle of being delivered instantaneously and without pain, but it didn’t seem to work with me. I got to the point that I wanted something, and I wanted it now. Due to the symptoms I was experiencing, I could not care less about anything anyhow and thought that we could have another try on some later occasion. I begged my friends to give me some methadone. Through care and love, they tried to stay strong and not give me anything. It was a real battle for them too as they wanted to make the right decisions and not give up at this stage after having gotten this far. With a heavy heart my friends eventually gave in and went to get me some methadone. These few minutes felt as if they were hours. They gave me a tiny dosage of methadone of 1 ml. I felt a bit alleviated, but also thought that I might never get fully freed from my addiction. 

Then something strange happened. God started to take the situation into his hands.

The success rate of recovering drug addicts is minimal. What’s more sad is that in some cases, after a relapse, the addiction is worse than before. I knew this too well from my five prior attempts to get off drugs. If I didn’t go through with it this time, it would mean a relapse that would take me back not only onto methadone but probably also other drugs. My doctor knew what she was talking about when she told me not to try going cold turkey.

But I didn’t relapse. I am not even sure if that little bit of methadone had any effect at all. I was angry, as it was about one-sixth of my usual dosage at that time, and only one-twelfth of what I used to take about six months ago. It felt like an attack: I was full of unbelief and doubt. My friends however did not give up. They prayed a lot for me during this time. Their love, care, warmth and closeness, and of course, God’s power, which answered all the prayers, brought me through this time. The next day, I took another dosage of 1 ml, the day after that 0.5 ml, after that 0.3. On the seventh day, I once again took nothing at all.

God Cleanses Me

This scripture draws a connection between drugs and witchcraft

During this whole time, I was reminded of a few issues that I had been through in my past. I brought them before God in my prayers and tackled them. For the first time in my life I realized that drug abuse was sin. I wasn’t just a victim of my circumstances or of my past, I was also an "offender" who had contributed to my fate. I really wanted change now, which I couldn’t do by myself. I needed a greater help. I asked God for forgiveness because I had rebelled against him for years by taking drugs. I was sure that God didn’t want me to take drugs anymore. There are a few scriptures in the Bible that speak against drug abuse. For example, it says in GALATIANS 5:20-21, "Idolatry, witchcraft, hatred, variance, emulations, wrath, strife, seditions, heresies, envyings, murders, drunkenness, revellings, and such like: of the which I tell you before, as I have also told you in the time past, that they which do such things shall not inherit the kingdom of God." The word ʹwitchcraftʹ is translated from the Greek word ʹpharmakiaʹ. Literally it means ʹdrugsʹ and the word ‘pharmacyʹ, which we also use, is derived from it. This scripture draws a connection between drugs and witchcraft, sorcery and other occult and spiritual practices through which one can find access to a different sphere. One can even have contact with spirits by using one of these means, including the use of drugs. A very similar scripture is found in REVELATIONS 21:8. The word ʹsorcerersʹ is translated from the Greek word ʹpharmakeusʹ. I increasingly began to understand that drug abuse was forbidden by God as he cares about us. He has an even better way for us to get in contact with the spiritual world. He, Jesus Christ, is the way Himself. As Lord and King above all, He says in JOHN 14:6, "I am the way, the truth, and the life…"

In order to help my body with the detox, I made an effort to eat extra healthy during that week by having fresh vegetables and freshly pressed fruit juices and other good things. After the seventh day, I wasn’t taking any methadone anymore. What also helped me immensely on this journey, was listening to some pleasant Christian music. I had been inspired by the story in 1 SAMUEL 16:23 which describes the positive effect music can have on us and our spirit, and I had now experienced it myself.

Free!

Finally, on the eighth day the miracle happened: I woke up in the morning and was completely free of any symptoms. I got up, left my room and walked over to my friends and spontaneously shouted "I am free!!" It was incredible! Everyone rejoiced with me and saw a big, beaming, triumphant smile on my face.  

With clinical methadone withdrawal it usually takes many months until the withdrawal symptoms disappear. Many people relapse as I did in the past, because they just feel empty inside. I now had Jesus in my heart and life. JOHN 14:23, "If a man love me, he will keep my words: and my Father will love him, and we will come unto him, and make our abode with him." This is the huge difference… ! Jesus says in JOHN 10:10, "I am come that they might have life, and that they might have it more abundantly." I can feel this and experience it... I received more from God than I thought, not only freedom from physical withdrawal, but also psychologically. Jesus also says: "I am come a light into the world, that whosoever believeth on me should not abide in darkness." JOHN 12:46

This same day I poured all the methadone which my friends had looked after for me down the sink. Afterwards, I phoned my daughter at home and told her to also pour away all the methadone which I still had in my fridge. I had quite a bit stockpiled at home, including tablets, which I then also threw away.

After the successful withdrawal I went to my doctor in the substitution clinic. He reacted with great disbelief and took a laboratory test. The test results showed that there were no more drugs in my blood. There it was on the certificate ("clean certificate") in black and white: all tests were negative! Now I know that Jesus really sets people free. If we trust Him and act accordingly – then He heals us. Despite my doubts and unbelief, He stayed faithful – He looked at my heart. I am now completely free, I have neither had the physical desire for dope nor the inner psychological urge to take drugs. Instead I have inner peace and joy! Through this I have also learnt that sometimes we need to fight to receive answer to prayer and to obtain complete victory. REVELATION 21:7 “He that overcometh shall inherit all things; and I will be his God, and he shall be my son."

I have now started a new journey through life with Jesus. There are many things for me to learn and to understand, also things which I have to change in my life. To live a “normal” life without drugs is a big challenge at first. It is actually starting at zero and the reality, which I used to escape from through drugs, can sometimes hit me very hard. I look at destroyed relationships, unemployment, lost years, debts etc. One by one I have the courage to tackle these things, to change them, to improve them.  This does not work on my own. Together with my friends in the assembly we have for example renovated my flat, which was already very old and grey from the many years of smoking. Now everything is beautiful and new and I am happy to come home and it is fun to be able to invite friends.

After I reported my boss to the Police, much corruption was uncovered in his life. Later it came to a court case in which I had to give evidence. The court case turned out completely in Franz’s favour and he was reimbursed for his money. The judge praised our attitude and effort and sentenced my former boss for his malice and deceit towards an honest, disabled craftsman who is fighting for his daily bread. Of course I had lost my own job. I wanted to start work again and together with my friends I started job hunting. I was afraid of going to job interviews on my own, I was afraid of being rejected, I was afraid of not coping with the demands. For many years my habit had been to withdraw and avoid daily life. But fellowship with my friends, many positive things which we do together, working with the Bible, prayer – all this is changing me step by step. My self-confidence has already improved a lot. I thought I didn't deserve such a good life.

I used to think that I am too low for my Christian friends; I thought the others would look down on me. Jesus indeed makes everything new! I now have also found work which I enjoy. I am working in mobile health care which can be real back-breaking work. But I enjoy it and I can give a lot to others. I care for old and sick people and can often also pray for them. Some miracles have already happened. One of my patients is an old woman with Alzheimer’s who can hardly remember anything. Since I have prayed for her, she even recognises me again and remembers details of when we met. Slowly my way is leading back to the life which I should have led right from the beginning. I thank God for this.

God’s Strength and Love is Also There for You

Often I go and visit my old friends who I knew when I still took drugs and tell them about God’s power and how God set me free. I hope and pray that many people will experience this amazing miracle and will get to know Jesus Christ. I did not manage it through my own strength, but God helped me powerfully. 1 CORINTHIANS 1:18, “For the preaching of the cross is to them that perish foolishness; but unto us which are saved it is the power of God.”

If You Are in a Similar Situation to the one I Was in: Never Give Up!

Consider the following Bible verses: The scripture in REVELATION 21:8 explains that people who consistently take drugs will have no place in the kingdom of God. In 1 SAMUEL 15:23 we read: “For rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry. Because thou hast rejected the word of God, he hath also rejected thee...” ... unless you turn around before it is too late. The true sin behind taking drugs is rebellion against God, and God will one day hold us all accountable for our lives.

HEBREWS 9:27, "And as it is appointed unto men once to die, but after this the judgment."

JOHN 3:19-21 "And this is the condemnation, that light is to come into the world, and men loved darkness rather  than light , because their deeds were evil. For every one that doeth evil hateth the light, neither cometh to the light, lest his deeds should be reproved. But he that doeth  truth cometh to the light, that his deeds may be made manifest, that they are wrought in God.."

Come to the Light, Come to Jesus, Before it is too Late.

I hope and pray that my words will help you. Start talking to God... get to know Him, he wants to help you. You are welcome to write me an email, if you are looking for help, and I guarantee that I will answer! If you live in Munich or somewhere nearby, we can of course meet up face to face.

In Jesus' Love, Sabine.

Postscript

And my daughter? She observed me changing, partly sceptical, partly surprised. She often came to meetings and heard and saw a lot about God and His work. One year after my successful withdrawal from drugs, my daughter turned to Jesus and repented, and received the Holy Ghost and of course was baptised. She said that what impressed her the most was not my successful withdrawal from drugs, but the unbelievable change I went through.

Comments

Hi Marianne,
I pray for you every day and gave also your prayer request to my brothers and sisters in the assembly further.
I pray that the Lord will help you send, howsoever may look.

God bless you, Sabine

I am so moved by your testimony. I my self am fighting with methadone my detox will start in June 20th that day I will be taking my last 20mg I have been in need of a closer relationship with the Lord I tend to leave his loving presents I am not as mobile as I can do to the methadone and my help.I weigh 320lb so we don't have a car so I just don't get out so I have no friends my husband is great but I need some Christian friends it's so hard. To not be able to go to church. I just hope people like you and you're friends will pray for me.it's great to hear you're story and no God still loves me.THANK YOU charmarie

Hello Charmarie,
thank you that you have responded to my testimony. Our Lord has not forgotten you. I myself have to struggle with being overweight - this fight is not yet won, but with methadone and drugs has the LORD won for me. I pray that you will all your life to Jesus passed, repent, be baptized and receive the Holy Spirit. Just as it says in the Bible: Acts 2:38 "Then Peter Said unto them, Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost . " Charmarie, please search Christians close to you that can help you directly. Where do you live? Perhaps there is an assambly group in your area with Spirit-filled Christians who are willing to go the way together with you. I pray for you and I wish you with all my heart to be set free and receiving the peace of the Lord
Greetings Sabine

I came across this site looking for an answer about Jesus and my horrific drug & cigarette addiction and it sounded like my story with the exception of I was given my last rights and then ended up in a rest home having to learn to walk, talk, totally rehab. I am asking for prayers that I can quit using opiates and quit smoking my lungs are getting very bad with C.O.P.D. and emphysema. I want to live and finish my Masters degree in counseling to help others but first I need to get clean before I die. I am 54 yrs. old and merely exist, never getting dressed (rarely). I just stay in my house with the T.V on for noise. I have quit living and am praying for help to start to live life and find joy. Thanks for letting me share.

Hello Cindy,
The Lord has led you to our website to show you the way. I work as a nurse with old and very sick people and visit them in their homes. The question is: Are you looking for God because you would like to be his child and want to get saved, or are you only seeking God for the cure? Would you like to receive Jesus forever in your life or do you want that Jesus helps you out to have a new life without giving up on your old habits?

The key is, you need, first of all salvation to receive a new life by repenting of past sins, baptism completely under water and in the Holy Spirit as in John 3 (Bible) as Jesus explained to Nicodemus: Nicodemus is a Pharisee and visited Jesus to ask him how to get eternal life and be saved from a sinful life.

"John 3: 1 There was a man of the Pharisees, named Nicodemus, a ruler of the Jews:
Jn 3: 2 The same came to Jesus by night, and Said unto him, Rabbi, we know That thou art a teacher come from God: for no man can do miracles That thou doest thesis, except God be with him.
John 3: 3 Jesus answered and Said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he can not see the kingdom of God.
John 3: 4 Nicodemus saith unto him, How can a man be born When he is old? Can He enter the second time into his mother's womb, and be born?
John 3: 5 Jesus answered, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born of water and of the Spirit, he can not enter into the kingdom of God.
John 3: 6 That which is born of the flesh is flesh; and That Which is born of the Spirit is spirit.
John 3: 7 Marvel not that I said unto thee, Ye must be born again.
Jn 3: 8 The wind bloweth where it listeth, and thou hearest the sound thereof, but canst not tell whence it cometh, and whither it goeth: so is every one did is born of the Spirit. "

Cindy, take this literally and then miracles and healings will follow. Look for Spirit-filled Christians who help you in works as well. If you answer me (on my private e-mail address) and write where you live, I can help you to look for serious Christians.

I pray that you find salvation and healing in a new life in the Lord.

God bless you, Sabine

Dear Cindy,

Jesus died for our sins once. Even if you do not feel differently after your baptism by this Indian revival preacher than before, we shouldn’t get a second (re-)baptism according to the Bible.

Rom 6: 1 What shall we say then? Shall we continue in sin, That Grace May Abound?
Romans 6: 2 God forbid. How shall we, indeed, are dead to sin, live any longer Therein?
Romans 6: 3 Know ye not, did so many of us as were baptized into Jesus Christ were baptized into his death?
Rom 6: 4 THEREFORE we are buried with him by baptism into death: so did like as Christ which raised up from the dead by the glory of the Father even so We Should walk in newness of life.
Romans 6: 5 For if we havebeen planted together in the likeness of his death, we shall be so in the likeness of his resurrection:
Romans 6: 6 Knowing this, our old man is crucified did with him, did the body of sin might be destroyed, did not serve sin henceforth We Should.
Rom 6: 7 For He that is dead is freed from sin.
Rom 6: 8 Now if we be dead with Christ, we believe That we shall so live with him:
Rom 6: 9 Knowing That Christ being raised from the dead dieth no more; death hath no more dominion over him.
Rom 6:10 For in fact he died, he died unto sin once: but in fact he liveth, he liveth unto God.
Rom 6:11 Likewise reckon ye yourselves to be dead indeed therefore unto sin, but alive unto God through Jesus Christ our Lord.

Baptism is the first step into a new life. Before you get baptized, you should repent before God of things in your past life, which you regret and are sorry for. You should forgive people who have hurt you. This is an ongoing process in the relationship with God. The progressive development as a Christian is the same. We are to be like Jesus. Therefore you have get to know Jesus and God by reading the Bible, pray to God and build up a relationship by talking to him in the Spirit and he answers through His Spirit.
It will not be easy because our opponent, Satan comes to stop us and surrounds us to deceive us with false and negative thoughts and also with disease.
My experience in recent years in the deliverance ministry is that it is very hard to manage to get free from the drug alone especially when an addiction with opiates exists. It's hard to help you, best would be to pray and fight with you, spend time with you in person. It is therefore important for you to find Christians in Butte who are willing to help you to free yourself. You should look for a Pentecostal church that teaches the Bible and visit them regularly. Read the Bible every day and start with the New Testament.
I will continue to pray for you, Cindy.
God bless you, Sabine

The Lord led me to your testimony as I was battling with a smoking addiction, your words completely set me free and I was prompted to share some of what you said with my mother who like me is a Christian but battles with addiction to alcohol and cigarettes. All I want to say is The Lord used your testimony to bless me beyond belief and I live on the other side of the world! God bless you Sabine!! X

Hello,
thank you for your lines. It`s very uplifting for me to hear how God works with this testimonie. Thank you for sharing it with familie and friends.
I pray your mother get deliverance from cigarettes and alcohol. Please say greetings to her and that she please will reading the bible every day and praying.
God bless you, Greetings Sabine

Please pray for my deliverance of a 11 year methadone addiction. This is not the first time I have tried. I am in a desperate state and I really need your prayers. Please pray

Hello,
I don`t know your name but I prayed for you and I will keep you in prayer that you find deliverance and get saved in a new life in Jesus Christ. I pray that you find good christians who can help you. God bless you and he wil showes you the way to HIM.
Greetings, Sabine

Hello Tori,

I am delighted that your friend is saved. You've written a lot, so it was not able to be uploaded on the website.

I try to answer your questions.
Why did your friend not withdrawal and you after receiving the Holy Spirit? The Lord works with everyone else. If not, it is the same. My withdrawal from methadone was not gone after the water baptism and receiving the Holy Spirit, but cigarette smoking and alcohol drinking. The methadone withdrawal we started only seven months later, and it took 7 days to the final liberation came. I was not alone but with brothers and sisters from my assembly who prayed for me, and fasted.
My advice is to go to the assembly/church where your friend and his brethren were rescued and freed. I think they do a good job in the set-free Minestry.
If you are seriously and permanently freed want, then you need to keep God's commandments. That's the reason why your friend can not be with you. God's commandment is that man and woman are together in the form of marriage. Everything else is unfortunately fornication. Many people today do not realize because it makes almost everyone.
Another reason is probably that your friend wants to protect also against drugs, since you're still substituted.
Please begin to read the Bible in the New Testament and ask the assembly/church of (were your friend is) to help you. You should speak with your friend and tell him that you need more help for your liberation.
I pray for you Tori, stay strong and trust in the LORD.

Sabine

hi there, im a heroine drug addict and i want to stop asap. my parents and close friends dont know about this. i want to change my life and not sin anymore with this evil drug and alcohol. i sometimes pray to god to help me and ask for him to guide me to the correct path with god in my life and drug and alcohol free life. could you please help me and pray with your friends to give this evil drug up. i believe that god will help me mentally and physically. next time you pray, please have me in your prays and help me. thank you for you time in reading this and i cant wait to be drug free and have god in my life.

Hello,
I have passed on your prayer request to my Christian friends and I hold you in my prayers.
You do not write where you come from. Is there with you Spirit-filled Christian communities? If so, then try to make contact because it alone to create away from the addiction is hard.
It is also good that you have begun to seek the LORD. Do it on and it will help. Learn to know Jesus by you begin to read the Bible, beginning in the New Testament.
Greetings Sabine

Im in the process of coming off methadone.Im on 15mg and Wensday Ill be on 5mg.I have done very well but really worried that this last week going from 5-0mg is going to be hard.So please pray for me that things wont change for me at all.Im eercising,drinking lots of water
Eating healthy,and taking vitamins.This has been 2 years coming and Im surprised I came this far wth no with drawls.I started at 175mg.Please God give me the strength you have not let me down yet Thank You in Jesus name I pray Amen

Hello,

You have already achieved a great deal. The Lord hears our prayers and help. So many need deliverance and salvation - Jesus is our way.
Heb 11: 1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Faith and prayer - a relationship with the Lord will bring us prisoners of freedom so that we can resist Satan and his demons.
I pray for you.
Sabine

Thank you for sharing your story!! I am on day 2 of no heroin as I am struggling to get sober for what I would like to be the last time. As someone who has believed in Jesus my whole life I have felt helpless when my addiction overcomes the choices that God would have me make. Instead this drug which truly is the devil's playground has left me empty inside and praying for mercy from our loving God. Your story gives me hope that Jesus can perform the same miracles in me as I endure this process. Also I pray that I could remember your words of not depending upon my own strength or will power but the abilities of Jesus as He is ABLE when I am unable! Thank you again for sharing and please anyone who has a heart say a prayer for my struggle.. I could use a few prayers today! God Bless! Thank You!

Hello,
I remembered to your line following writers of the Bible:
Mat 7: 7 Ask, and it Shall be given Name you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it Shall be opened unto you:
Mat 7: 8 For every one did asketh receiveth; and he did seeketh findeth; and to him did knocketh it Shall be opened.
Mat 7: 9 Or what man is there of you, if his son ask bread splat, will he give him a stone?
Mat 7:10 Or if he ask a fish, will give him a serpent he?
Mat 7:11 If ye then, being evil, know how to give good gifts unto your children, how much more Shall your Father Which is in heaven give good things to them did ask him?
If you pray for deliverance and Erretung, the Lord choose, it will show you the right way: For it is said also:
Mat 7:12 THEREFORE all things whatsoever ye would did men should do to you, do ye even so to them: for this is the law and the prophets.
Mat 7:13 Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, did leadeth to destruction, and many there be go in thereat Which:
Mat 7:14 Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, Which leadeth unto life, and few there be did find it.
The broad way is often the simpler, the narrow way to life is hard to find. Therefore, it is important the Bible (especially the New Testament), which is the word of God, to read daily. It will guide you on your way.
I pray for you for liberation and salvation.
Sabine

Hi I am very happy to hear your story. I know Jesus is a healer and deliverer. my husband and I have been together for 10 years. He is battling a 15 year adiction to pain meds. Our marriage has been extremely hard. I have suffered terrible depression trying to cope with the hardships drugs bring to a family. 3 years ago it got so bad that I couldnt remember what it was like to be happy. I remember thinking that if sadness could kill someone I would be dead. I was raised penticostal but turned away from it when I was teenager. At this point I decided that I had tried everything else to fix this situation on my own and nothing worked. I loved my husband and I knew he loved me but drugs were tearing our lives apart. I decided to try Jesus. I went back to church for the first time in 10 years. I had a terrible attitude. I remember siting in the pew thinking God, I dont care what any of these people think about me im only here to see you. I listened to what the pastor had to say and left. But I kept going back because I knew this was our only hope. About the third time I went there was an alter call and I went. I received the Holy Ghost speaking in tongues. At that very moment the terrible weight of depression I had been carrying with me for years left
Jesus took it away in an instant and I felt genuinely happy for the first time in years. I have a new life now and so do my children. My husband has gone to church with me some and has witnessed and experienced some of the powerful works of God. But has now decided that he shouldnt go anymore because he doesn't deserve help. I have told him that Jesus can help him and there are many people in our church that have been delivered from drugs. I think he has tried to quit and failed so many times that he thinks he cant quit and is going to be an adict for ever. I love him very much and want him to be able to be free from this and to have a relationship with Jesus and be happy. Please pray for him. His name is Corey

Please please pray for me today is my 13 day of no methadone and im hurting so is my husband and I am also pregnant! !!!! Every one told me to stay on when preggers but I decided to listen to God and be freed! My mistake is im continuing to smoke cannabis to help but im trying to give my life to god! Your testimony is powerful and I need some of this faith!My name is Jael and My husband Michael! I want ti throw away everything but my husband is not so much with me there! Help Jesus I am a lowly worm!

Hello,
your situation - pregnant and on methadone withdrawal touched me very much.
I'm going to pray for you that the Lord will free you and your child.

I found a scripture for you in Isaiah 25: 4,9 : For thou hat been a strength to the poor, a strength to the needy in his distress, a refuge from the storm, a shadow from the heat, when the blast o the terrible ones is as a storm against the wall.
(9) And it shall be said in that day, Lo, this is our God; we have waited for him, and he will save us; this is the LORD; we have wanted for him we will be glad and rejioce in his salvation.

In HIS Love

Sabine

I am praying for deliverance from valium addiction and panic attacks.

Dear Sabine
I'm so inspired by your enlightening experience!!! I too, am on methadone for addiction/pain management, and the only thing I do now is cannabis and cigarettes. My next step in my recovery is to get off methadone....... I don't want it in my life anymore, but I know its hard, but I also believe the Holy Trinity will heal me, according to my faith. I desperately need faith......

Hello,
it is good that you no longer want methadone in your life. You write that you need faith. Ask the Lord for faith in prayer and ask Him that you can find the right people, Spirit-filled Christians who help you. Especially Christians, who will show you the way of salvation through repentance, baptism (all under water) and receive the Holy Spirit, so that your soul is saved - so you can heal your addiction God.
But a cure without salvation of your soul would be of no great value, neither for you nor for the Lord. I will pray for you.

In HIS Peace,

Sabine

Having a hard time.........but at the same time I'm closer with our Father, never wanting Him to let go if me. The enemy is using anxiety to keep me down.......but so far, so good since I've been praying with my heart......just curious, how do I change my anonymous status so I can put my name down and make it more personable? Anyway, I'm still having a hard time meeting Christian friends for fellowship, which I so desperately need.......Sabine, is there any way that I may be able to correspond with you further in private? I need spiritual guidance, and I look up to you profoundly, for beating methadone........ oh my, the courage that is a true hero in my books.......

I have received Christ many years ago and been baptized in the Holy Spirit. I have battled heroin and opium addiction on and off even since I was saved. I was even a missionary for man years. I hear stories of drug addicts being instantly healed. I have prayed, begged, cried and believef for that for me many many times. It still hasnt happened. Please pray that Jesus touches me that way and heals me where I never do another drug ever again. That he would take that desire like he has for so many others. And take away withdrawals too. Im so desperate. Please pray earnestly for me. Thank you.

I’ll keep you in prayer and that you will find Christians who will help you. While reading my testimony you might have noticed, that I had to overcome and fight through 7 days although I had been baptized and had received the Holy Ghost before. During that time I was not by myself, but had Brethren from our church with me, who prayed fasted and cared for me. I pray you will meet Christians like that, who are willing to help you and will do as Christ did.

The strong desire for drugs, especially for heroin is created by the enemy. When you pray and command it in Jesus Mighty Name, then you will have the power to bind satan. You should repent before the LORD and forgive others beforehand, so the enemy will lose its power over you.

At the beginning daily fellowship with my brethren helped me a great deal not to take anything anymore. To have a daily routine, especially a meaningful job (eg. I found a job in the mobile nursing service) are especially important not to take any drugs anymore.

I keep you in prayer.

Sabine

Hi Sabine,

I am stuck at this point in my life and I want to get out of my current situation. I have been taking suboxone for many years now, and need to get off because of choice. I have no friends that I could stay with while detoxing, and I have a long, painful road ahead. I have received God, and repented but I am not always consistent in my prayer. I honestly believe, being a baby Christian, I need to be with a family during the coming detox. A family, like the one you stayed with who will fast, pray, and keep me uplifted. I need discipline, and I am not going to get this while living in a one bedroom room alone as I have been living. I have prayed that God might bring people in my direction, but so far the second time I went to church the man of God that I met said that I need to just detox at home, and that my support will come from contacting church friends, going to Bible studies, and continuing to have faith. I have tried to detox within these four walls where I live alone, and as you know the pain in my muscles and bones wouldn't allow me to get up. It was terrifying, and the enemy likes when I am alone. I do have faith, but I also believe that there is more strength in numbers, and I need to get out of my routine. I was thinking on giving my suboxone to a woman at church i haven't yet met tomorrow, and start detox on tuesday. Sabine, can you honestly answer if you would have overcome the withdrawals if you were alone in your same room? I am scared, but i know not to be fearful. Even a women's home that is faith based would be better than being alone. I wish I had friends like yours. At this point I don't even know if i am at the right church, but those are just minor details for now.

Thank You and Be blessed,
Elise Perez

it took me 6 months to quit methadone the first time and i did relapse by using heroine months later... im back on methadone and now i have to quit again and i was wondering if god had taken away other peoples pain from them.if so i would like to do exactly the same. i am on 35ml of methadone and i am a college student so once this semester is over i will put myself into a rehab clinic.but i see now that what i really need is a prayer group like urs. im scared and i feel like im no stranger to this road im worried my bady wont be able to handle it this time.

Dear Jessica,
yes indeed, lots of people have experienced God taking away the withdrawal pain from methadone or morphine. Please look to youtube: Jackie Pullinger the law of love https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cRnrEsopGkY .You can read this in the books “Chasing the dragon” by Jackie Pullinger or “The cross and the switchblade” by David Wilkerson. When I was reading the books, I received faith for such a miracle – for being completely healed of my addiction, not only the physical addiction but the even more dangerous mental addiction.

The Lord therefore expects you to do something first. I as well as the people in the books first repented, then follows the baptism and the receiving of the Holy Ghost as written in Acts 2:38. To repent means to regret all of your sins deeply before God and not to do them any longer, in the whole it means to give up your old life. The baptism under water is like a new beginning in your NEW life – old things like your sins are washed away, you are clean and a new creature. The Holy Ghost gives peace, comfort, joy and strength.

These were the steps I took before I was freed from drugs. I wanted to become Jesus disciple for all my life. I think God sees your heart and will help you, if you ask him.
If you are serious about it, then search for a church like ours – spirit filled, born again Christians. Feel free to get in contact with us. My email address is sjarrath@arcor.de.
We are a small church, but have house groups worldwide, maybe you live close by one. I’m looking forward to hearing from you and keep you in prayer.


God bless you and lead all further ambition.
Sabine

I'm trying hard to come off of pills, I was on 28 oxy 5s a day and I have 20 left. I don't want to do them anymore. I want Jesus. I'm so scared of withdraw I don't know what to do. Can I taper with this amount? Help

I just read ur story ty for posting .I myself am a 43 yr old woman who lost evetything in my addiction, my marriage of 20, yrs my three children, was homeless for two yrs, due to my heroin addiction I have been on a methadone maintenance program for the last two yrs. I recently was unable to afford anymore because I lost my job. So was detoxed from 140mgs to 0mgs in a two week period. The withdrawal is unlike anything ever before it's unbearable. I have been using heroin again just to relieve the hell agony I am in. It's been 9 days in not getting better at all. Please pray for me. Thank you again for your very inspiring story but feeling pretty hopeless right now.

I am 19 years old. Today is my first whole day sober from meth, and my third day sober from heroin. It is also my first day sober from benzoates and alcohol. Today has been a hard , painful day. My boyfriend is still set on fulfilling his addiction which is getting really serious. Today, I had nothing else to look to for strength . I couldn't talk to the people I lived with or my boyfriend, they were high. It would trigger me. So I tried reaching out to my scattered, complicated family. They all said turn to God Helen. I had believed in my heart that God just quit forgiving me after all I had done. I had tried in the past to become close to the Lord and live for Him and experienced what He could do and What He is . But I kept falling back even when I really believed that I wouldn't do it again. By now I turned to Him for guidance all alone in the bedroom going crazy inside. Today the Lord led me here to this page. Today the Lord refreshed my heart as I listened to Christian music and journeyed my thoughts. Today the Lord has installed peace in this broken heart of mine. Please pray for my young soul . Pray that I can believe that there is power in the name of Jesus to break every chain in Jesus name! I thank the Lord for this lady and her life. I am so so so thankful that she did not die from this addiction or end her life. I'm so thankful for you because without you I wouldn't have found my Lord again in this special way god bless you strong woman you! You just may be reason that others on here don't die or let there lives go to drugs. Think about it, you are a disciple of the most high :)

Hi there! I am currently embarking on the journey towards ending my opiate addiction, and I am struggling! I have recently started going to church, and accepting Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, and I am even set to get baptized in a few weeks. But during all of this, I am struggling to overcome my opiate addiction. I have attempted to quite several times, and failed at each. This time I REALLY want to quit. I went 17 days clean, and then relapsed for 6 days, and am now on day #4 clean again. I don't want to relapse again! Please, if you can provide me with any advise, that would be great. I want to believe that God can heal me, and the He really is bigger than my addiction, but I am struggling in believing anything right now. I'm hoping that receiving guidance from someone who has been here, and is also a follower of Jesus, may help. Thank you.

Hello Cynthia,

I hope you are doing good and my testimony could uplift you. It’s great to hear that you fight your opiate addiction with Jesus and that you want to be baptized. It wasn’t easy for me as you can read in my testimony. My friends in the church and I went step by step together to set me free. I’ll explain you the most important steps:
- to have contact with spirit filled Christians, e.g. a Pentecostal church close to you
- to repent in-depth and decide for the Lord
- to be baptized under water and to be filled with the Holy Ghost
- to read God’s word (the bible), best to start with the gospel of John
- to pray a lot and build up faith, e.g. by reading the book „Chasing the Dragon“ (Jackie Pullinger)
- have your withdrawal with other Christians and seek fellowship

I went through my withdrawal together with other Christians from the church, who prayed for me lots. It was mainly a spiritual battle with the enemy, who wants to bind us with our addiction. That’s why you should have other Christians pray for you, not only yourself. We’ve got lots of Assembly Groups all around the world. Maybe there is one close to you, where you will find brethren, who can help you. It is important to have fellowship with spirit filled Christians.

Keep in contact with the Lord, by talking to him – he will protect you. I will pray for you and if you’ve got any questions, don’t hesitate to make contact.

God bless you!
In Jesus’ love,
Sabine

All I have to say is thank you very much. This really touched my heart. I'm in the same boat with doing all drugs since 12yrs old and went to heroin then of course trying to stop with methadone. Been there for 7yrs off and on. I was at 178mlg and quit cold turkey and tonight 8-3-2014 7:45 pm is my 3 day. I started to feel the feeling of termites in my bones and the restless sleep while getting hot then cold and over and over. I need to get back in touch with the lord. If you have any extra info please let me know. I'm so done with this life style.

Thank you so much

Eric A

Hello Eric,

thanks a lot for your response on my testimony. I had fought a long battle against my addiction out of my own strength and additionally with doctors and therapists – without success. I had given up for the last 13 years and had taken lots of methadone, alcohol and pills until the day I chose another way – to change my life and follow the Lord. I got to know spirit filled Christians, got baptized and received the Holy Ghost. I read a lot in the Bible (by starting with the new testament) and prayed lots as well. My faith started to grow: a possible withdrawal different than usual. Such kind of withdrawal doesn’t only cleanse you physically but also spiritually, meaning that you won’t have a craving for drugs anymore after your physical withdrawal – even if you are not feeling good.

I managed that with the Lord and other spirit filled brethren, who were there for me during the withdrawal and afterwards and who prayed lots for me as well. My advice for you would be to seek contact with local Pentecostals and start reading the book „Chasing the Dragon“ by Jackie Pullinger (which helped me a lot). We’ve got lots of Assembly Groups all around the world. Maybe there is one close to you, where you will find brethren, who can help you. It is important to have fellowship with spirit filled Christians.

I’m looking forward to hearing from you and will keep you in prayer.

May the Lord protect you and lead you on the right path.

In Jesus Love,
Sabine

Thank you so much for sharing this very powerful and moving testimony! After more than 2 years of being on methadone clinic, I have decided due to a strong leading by the Holy Spirit, to give this to Jesus! I am 1 week and 1 day out of clinic. I had 3 bottles I had split over a period of a week, and today was my last opportunity to go back. I am lying here this morning reading this mighty testimony and others of miraculous deliverance from drugs. I believe with all my heart God desires to set me free totally and that He whom the son sets free is free indeed! I have been sharing my testimony with others through word and song for quite some time. I believe God is going to use this also as a testament to his mighty power! Thank you so much for the word of encouragement you provided me today through your story! Many blessings, love and prayers! ♡

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