Saved from a Muslim Background

Hatice - Buettelborn, Germany

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Hi,

My name is Hatice. I was born in Germany, into a Turkish, Muslim family. My parents named me Hatice, after the first wife of the prophet Mohammad. Between my conversion from Islam to Christianity, I tried to find answers in other places as well, and I'd like to share with you how I became a Christian. I hope that my testimony will help and encourage you to search for God and not to give up, even if you meet with obstacles on your way.

As a child I wasn't convinced by the Islamic faith. However, since I was born as a Muslim, I didn't have much of a choice. So, I did what was expected of me: I learned verses from the Qur'an by heart and said them as prayers. By the time I was 10 years old I had to have a headscarf on and I wasn't allowed to wear any revealing clothing. We went to the mosque regularly, celebrated the Islamic festivals and kept the fast at Ramadan. The only thing I didn't do was read the Qur'an, because I would have needed to learn Arabic first. Due to a lack of motivation I had already failed at learning the alphabet, so I never really got anywhere. I felt that these practices were only dead rites anyway. Still, I believed that there was a God, I just didn't know what, or who He was. Neither the Islamic faith nor Allah filled the emptiness that I felt in my heart. I was terrified of going to Hell. Very often I couldn't sleep; while lying in my bed I cried to God that he would help me and take this hopelessness and loneliness away.

On top of all that, my ‘home' didn't really reflect the harmony and friendly atmosphere you would expect from a family. We didn't have normal relationships with each other because we didn't respect each other, and we fought a lot. From childhood on I was beaten nearly every day - most of the time for no reason. I felt worthless, unloved, unwanted and very lonely. Often I wished I had never been born, or thought about suicide, but I knew that I would go to Hell for that. Therefore, I decided rather to endure the hell here on earth; yet, there was a spark of hope that my life might still turn around one day...

When I was about 10 I became interested in reading books. Soon I found that these stories helped me to flee reality, and I began to read day and night. It began to influence my way of thinking: I started to think in pictures, like in films. This led to many misunderstandings, for I would imagine conversations occurring differently than they really had, and, conversely, it was difficult for others to understand what I meant by what I said. Although I realised that I was different and even felt that I was "not normal," I considered myself to be someone “special” and better than other people.

...I changed... into a loud, provocative and rebellious character...

By and by, I changed from the once shy, quiet and rather nice person that I had been, into a loud, provocative and rebellious character. I started to smoke, got piercings, drank alcohol and smoked hashish. I went from one party to the next and came home late – if at all. I certainly didn't wear a headscarf anymore, but dyed my hair instead. Even further, I wore crazy looking clothes, had matted hair, and more and more was going beyond moderation in order to ‘fill' the boredom and the emptiness in my heart. All that seemed to draw me away from God more than I had felt to begin with. I didn't respect my parents anymore, became hardhearted, self-centred, proud and bitter, towards people and the world in general. Through the drugs I took and the music I was listening to (e.g. Nirvana), my periods of depression grew worse. They now appeared suddenly and at unexpected times, which nearly drove me mad. Already when I was a child I had seen demons or ghosts, but now they seemed to be so real and I could feel their presence. In a state of being “high” it was as if I left my body and I could see myself as a shadow sitting next to myself. Although I wasn't smoking hash that often and stopped it completely after a year, it had a lasting negative effect on my memory and my behaviour.

For quite a while already, I had 'managed' not to think about God anymore, but when I did think about Him, the subject didn't give me any peace. I decided to find out if Islam was the right faith. If yes, I would commit myself fully to it. I got a Turkish translation of the Qur'an from my mum. When I started reading it, I felt so sick that I couldn't continue and I decided that Islam couldn't be the right faith. At the same time I visited some Christian churches, but they all seemed to be as lifeless as Islam, just a bit more 'peaceful'.

My boyfriend at that time then took me to some Charismatic and Pentecostal gatherings. Although I didn't intend to become a Christian, at one of these gatherings my heart was softened and I decided to "give my life to Jesus". I joined one of the charismatic churches, got baptised by full immersion and received prayer to receive the Holy Spirit as the Bible describes, when a person is ‘filled with the Holy Ghost', ‘born again of the Spirit', and speaks in a new tongue. I didn't receive the Spirit though. I called myself a Christian and although I believed that Jesus forgives sin, in my heart I still felt like a sinner, and nobody could help me. I went to several churches and gatherings to try and receive the Holy Spirit, but I never did. I became frustrated: the Bible or these churches had to be wrong, or I was simply damned - God could not save me.

At the same time, some friends told me that they were in contact with a guy called George from a Pentecostal church I hadn't heard of. They asked if I'd like to meet up with him, I hesitated at first, but then went with two of my friends to their meetings. As I wasn't really interested, I broke the contact off after a while. I had been to many churches and was tired of them and couldn't see a difference in this church.

...I had decided to completely break off the subject of God and have fun instead...

At that time I was 20 years old and had moved away from home. I always thought that my problems would vanish as soon as I was away from home, but I realised that wasn't the case, because I was doing worse than ever. This was mainly because I had decided to completely break off the subject of God and have fun instead, but I found no pleasure or joy in anything. I was restless, and for several months had not slept properly, which caused me to feel half dead; I was at the end of myself. One night, when I couldn't sleep at all, suicidal thoughts seemed to force their way through in my mind. I was scared and in despair, for I wasn't able to switch these thoughts off.

Suddenly, God came into my mind again. Before I gave in to suicide I wanted to give God a chance. I opened the Bible and prayed; nothing was happening, but I kept thinking of that Pentecostal church again, and that maybe it was different to the others. I wanted to give it a chance, because I didn't want to stand before God after committing suicide and find out that I could have gotten my answers there, and even receive the Holy Spirit. The same evening a friend of mine and I met up with George. This time I asked questions and was attentive. Although I didn't comprehend the scriptures George was showing us from the Bible, I could see that he took his Bible seriously, didn't compromise with it and that his life was directed by the Word of God. I could sense that he was not a hypocrite and really cared for our souls. I hadn't seen that before in any other pastor or church. To see if this church was different, I went to further meetings, where I was shown from the Bible that to be saved, I needed to receive the Holy Spirit. So many reasons not to go through with it went through my mind. Eventually though, I decided to just try it out; if it didn't work for me I would simply not attend this church. I received prayer and the laying on of hands. Although I didn't receive the Holy Spirit straight away, I trusted that I still would. Three days later, while praying alone in my flat, I had a very strong feeling that I should take my piercing out, and did so. Seconds later, I received the Holy Spirit and started praying in a language I hadn't learned before. That was the proof for me that the Bible is true. This is one of many scriptures that describe this event I experienced: ACTS 19:6 "And when Paul had laid his hands upon them, the Holy Ghost came on them; and they spake with tongues, and prophesied".

Since then, my life and my character have changed and I am a new person today: 2 CORINTHIANS 5:17 "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new". From the time I moved away from home till the day I got saved I had no contact with my family at all, but now we have a great relationship, and they amongst each other. To my surprise, they don't have a problem with me being a Christian: they see a difference in me that has only been possible by the Holy Spirit working in me, and the teaching and care I have received and continue to receive in these Assemblies. One of the most important things I had to learn, which also helped in improving my relationship with my family and others, is to forgive. The Bible tells us in MATTHEW 6:14-15 "For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you: But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses".

...it becomes easier to follow Him and to understand who He is...

Looking back, I don't regret the things I had to go through to get saved, for I know what Jesus did for me. The scripture in COLOSSIANS 1:13-14 describes this perfectly: "Who hath delivered us from the power of darkness, and hath translated us into the kingdom of his dear Son: In whom we have redemption through his blood, even the forgiveness of sin". Not everything in me changed straight away; in the beginning it was hard work, but worth fighting through; for today I am a happy Christian. It doesn't mean that I am perfect now, I still have my struggles and many things to change; but the more I get to know God (reading the Bible and praying), it becomes easier to follow Him and to understand who He is: "Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn of me: for I am meek and lowly in heart: and ye shall find rest unto your souls. For my yoke is easy, and my burden is light" (MATTHEW 11:28-30).

I also understand better the relationship that I can have with God. Jesus is God's Son, and the Bible says this is the same relationship I can have with God, as it is described in ROMANS 8:14-17: "For as many as are led by the Spirit of God, they are the sons of God. For ye have not received the spirit of bondage again to fear; but ye have received the Spirit of adoption, whereby we cry, Abba, Father. The Spirit itself beareth witness with our spirit, that we are the children of God: And if children, then heirs; heirs of God, and joint heirs with Christ; if so be that we suffer with him, that we may be also glorified together".

Thanks for reading my testimony!

Hatice

Comments

Hi, God bless you sister.
I am from similar background as you, so I know you went through a hard time.
x hugs x

Lucy

Hi Lucy,
thanks for writing! It is amazing how God has given me a new life and has healed all of my wounds! He wants to do this for all people! I hope you have been saved and walking with Christ!
Love in Christ,
Hatice

I AM HAPPY TO HAVE YOU BECAUSE OUR HISTORY IS ALMOST THE SAME BECAUSE JUST IS ONLY NOW ONE MOUNTH I CONVERTED FROM ISLAM.

I AM RWANDAN WAS IN ISLAM 14 YEARS AGO BUT AT THE END OF 2014,WHEN I WAS ON WAY TO HOME I PRAYED GOD TO CHANGE BECAUSE I WAS VERY CONFUSED TO PRAY GOD IN ARABIC AND YOU KNOW THAT IF YOU LOOK FOR GOD YOU HAVE TO SERVE IN YOUR FAVORABLE LANGUAGE SO I KNOW MY GOD ALSO HEAR KINYARWANDA,FRENCH, ENGLISH,SWAHILI AND SO ON . SO WHY ARABIC EVERY MOMENT.WE CAN SHARE ALL OF MY STORY

Well, that was a good decision you chose Christianity. I would rather say that it is better not to follow the religion in which you do not have much faith. After all religion is made for the good of humanity and in my opinion, every religion carries the same message.

Hi everyone and God bless you all.

Tanya I just want to say Hallelujah to the Lord God Almighty, Jesus Christ our Saviour! God has called you and you answered. He says "My Sheep know My Voice" amen.

I was also a Muslim until the 24th March 2012 last year. I thought of myself as a good, dedicated Muslim, doing all I can to please the god of Islam. I thought there was no other religion like Islam and I believed it. I blocked all the contradictions in the quraan from my mind and I made myself blinded to the violent teachings of Islam. My mum and siblings were Christian and my dad is a Muslim. I hated my mum and siblings just for the fact that they were Christian. "And ye shall be hated by all men for My Names sake"

I became quite a rebel and I did things that are even too filthy to mention. I searched for salvation because there wasn't any in Islam (even though I was doing my best to be a muslim). I still felt like I wasn't forgiven even though I asked for forgiveness many times from the god of islam. I kept pushing my faith and belief in allah even though I couldn't feel any Divine Love or Salvation. But anyway, that wasn't important to me anymore. I turned to the world because there was no "Hold" on me to keep me. I turned to drugs, alcohol, clubbing, Satanism and I was also a homosexual. Nothing or no one could save me from such terrible sins. I was so deep into it however that I never even considered how it affected those around me.

I wish I could tell you my whole testimony but I just have to get to the point.

Many muslims and Christians, don't look at the bigger picture. "They worship but they know not what they worship" Last year, at my weakest, when I was so deep in my sin, the Lord Jesus Christ appeared supernaturally and He spoke to me in dreams. It left me so confused because I knew allah but this Voice sounded so familiar, so peaceful, so Holy, so deep. The Lord has never stopped giving me all these signs and speaking to me until I made my decision. I had come to a point where i had to choose. But the difference is that He made my choice for me "You have not chosen Me but i have chosen you" Hallelujah!

The Truth of God has been hidden from the world, and its been hidden from muslims aswell. The quraan completely rejects the crucifiction of the Messiah, the only salvation and forgiveness of sins and the only way to God. Jesus Christ is the Truth, the Way and the Life and there is no other way to the Father but through Him.

What i have come to realised has scared me so much but it has also made me so grateful for the Grace of God, which i don't deserve: I've realised that i was an Anti-Christ , i rejected the Blood of Jesus. I worshipped but i knew not what i worshipped. I look back at my life and i called myself a fool. If i had known the Truth back than i would have never become a Muslim or a anything else for that matter. But one thing i can say is that I was once lost but now im found. Amen.

My muslim brothers and sisters, sometimes our pride takes over and we get defensive over our religion. I too use to become angry when others tried to show me the Truth, but God works through people and He gives you another chance to actually go out there and find Him. I know Islam seems right, i also though that, but there is a Truth, the Exact Truth out there. You know what you have to do to find it? Just go down on your knees, be honest with yourself, think about YOUR soul, open up your heart and lift up your hands and say "God show me the way and i will follow, no matter what it is" and guess what? He WILL answer because He is a faithful God and He doesn't want to see you condemned. We force ourselves to go to Hell because we reject the only way out of Hell which is Jesus Christ. It worked for me, i asked and He answered me and He delivered me. He stood with me through all my family and friends who tried to bring me down, who called my experiences foolish and all in my mind. He stood with me and spoke for me when all those moulanas came to try and change my mind, but He spoke and those moulanas put their faces to the ground and they hurriedly left the house. Trust me my brothers and sisters, just get on your knees and put your pride behind you.

May God bless you all and tear the veils from your eyes amen.

 

Hi Riaz! It's a really great testimony, and amazing that God reached out to you through dreams. I have heard a lot of testimonies from people in Muslim countries who had visions and dreams of Christ. This lead them to get saved. Even though, there aren't many people who go out to those countries to preach the Word of God, God has a way of reaching people no matter where they are. I don't know if you have come across this documentary websitehttp://morethandreams.org/dreamsofjesus.html, but I have found it very moving and plan to continue using it when preaching to people!
 
Love in Christ,
Hatice

I am from muslim background and want to take baptisim

Hi Masood,

 

Thanks for writing! It is great that you are interested in getting baptized. I am not sure how much you know about baptism, and about how to get saved in general. I hope you have a bible, or can get your hands on one.

The scripture in Acts 2:37 and 38 gives the answer about how to get saved, which includes baptism, preceded by repentance. Here is the scripture: "Now when they heard this, they were pricked in their heart, and said unto Peter and to the rest of the apostles, Men and brethren, WHAT SHALL WE DO? Then Peter said unto them, REPENT, and be BAPTIZED every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye SHALL receive the GIFT of the HOLY GHOST."

This is the explanation for each step:

1. Repent - this means to turn around from your old ways and start to obey God.

2. Be baptized - this means to be fully immersed under water. The baptism is the 'burial' of the old life, the remission of sins.

3. Receive the gift of the Holy Ghost - this is God's gift to you. The first sign when you receive the Holy Spirit will be that you speak in a different language which God will give you. The Holy Spirit will then start to lead you and convict you of God's Truth.

 

Here are some links for some of the sheets we have on this website. These are full of scriptures from the bible and explain to you in more detail why it really means to get baptized etc.

http://www.cai.org/bible-studies/what-bible-says-about-water-baptism

http://www.cai.org/bible-studies/what-bible-says-about-holy-spirit

http://www.cai.org/bible-studies/christ-you-hope-glory-part-1

 

I don't know where you live, or if you can find a church you can go to. The most important thing for you is to read the bible and speak to God, because he can answer you and show himself to you, no matter where you are. Let me know if you have any other questions, or need help with.

 

Love in Christ,

Hatice

Hi Zipporah,

Thanks for writing to me, and I am really glad my testimony uplifted you! Your testimony is moving and I will keep your health in prayer. I hope that many Muslims will get saved, and I am glad that you have this on your heart. Nevertheless, our ministry in our church is not just to convert Muslims, but to train all who would follow Christ to be disciples. If we can get in contact via email, I can let you know my skype ID, and we can be in contact that way.
Hatice

I bless the name of the lord for you.i was brought up in a christian family but i deviated at some point.i have experienced problems with my reproductive health for almost my whole life and i felt lonely.i searched for someone to love me and got engaged to a muslim guy.i felt so lonely and almost killed myself when that guy abandoned me for my condition.i only thought of jesus as the only true friend and gave him all my life.i now win muslims to christ because i believe that it is an empty religion.i would really appreciate it if i meet with you and do this together.thank you sister in christ.

Hello,
Salam. Thanks for your sharing.It is really encouraging,I am also a Muslim Background believer. God bless you!
Azad

Hi Azad! Thanks so much for writing. It's uplifting to get feedback from other former Muslims who got saved! I really hope that more Muslims will also be reached and get saved!
Love in Christ - Hatice

Hi very touched by the testimony.I can relate 2 so much. I was also a muslim. My name was Tougeeda. Jesus healed me when I was very ill.I pray that this testimony will touch and change lives.

Hi Tanya!Thanks for writing. How did you get saved and what did you get healed of? It's really uplifting to hear that there are more Muslims and people from other religions who find the real God. Stay strong! Hatice

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