How God Led Me to Salvation
Hello everybody out there,
I would like to share how God saved me from my old life.
God saved me from my old life
I had a sheltered life; not only was I brought up protestant, but have always believed that God existed. Nevertheless, I had to fight with a lot of anxiety and restlessness inside me for inexplicable reasons. I always found the spiritual world to be interesting, leading me to watch several TV shows that revolved around demonic powers. From an early age, I had infrequent terrible nightmares causing me to be incapable of sleeping through the night. This resulted in concentration problems.
After my final secondary-school examinations I went to Africa to do a socio-pedagogical internship. My hunger for something “unknown” and “different” was so great that I did everything I could to be able to do this internship. My time in Africa left a great impression on me, as I encountered a completely different culture that mixes ancestor beliefs with Islam. It showed me that there must be more in the spiritual world: forces and powers that cannot be assessed or controlled by one’s own self. On my return I suffered from depression, a sort of culture shock I guess, and didn’t know what to do with myself; therefore, I thought it would help me to go to Ireland as an Au Pair before going back to Germany to start my apprenticeship as a technical design assistant. My anxiety grew with time, even in Ireland, and I had a hard time being relaxed when spending time with people. At this point, I knew that I needed help; but, instead of looking for help, I was hiding my anxiety. Nobody who knew me at this time would have known that I wasn’t doing well.
On my return to Germany I started training in my apprenticeship. During the holidays, I went to see friends who own a hotel at the Baltic Sea, and worked there with them for four weeks as a temporary employee. During this time, my friend Lydia told me a lot about God’s Word and the spiritual world. It was there that for the first time I experienced the power that is in worship to God. This made me more and more curious. Lydia gave me two books to read. One of the books was He Came to Set the Captives Free by Dr. R. Brown. When I realized that as a human being I now had power to withstand Satan and his demons, I knew that I needed God’s protection.
I had a lot of questions during this time. What if I am not really saved? Is it really enough to be baptized as a baby? After all, it wasn’t me who made the decision to be baptized back then. And although I had been serious about my confirmation, none of it gave me any peace. I started reading the Bible to find answers. However, I didn’t understand much of what I was reading. Therefore I prayed to God to send people my way that would help me to understand God’s Word, or rather, His will.
About the same, I received a leaflet from this assembly. I read it and kept it as I felt it was very much addressed to me. On this tract it also talked about the way to salvation: repent, be baptized under water and receive the gift of the Holy Ghost. The problem was that I didn’t really understand all of that. That’s why I started asking all sorts of religious people what to way to salvation really is. I asked, if it really was enough to be “baptized” as a baby. In response I got to hear a lot of philosophies and crazy ideas. None of it helped me as nobody had a clear answer.
showed me answers from the Bible
One evening when I was on the way home, I met Christof, a cabinet maker in Dresden back then. He was on the way home, too, and wanted to hand me a leaflet. I told him that I didn’t want to take it as I already had one. He didn’t want to believe me, so it took him some convincing from my side. We ended up getting into a conversation. He asked me if I wanted to know more, and so I asked him all the questions I had about salvation again. The interesting thing was that he didn’t just start talking away, but got a Bible out of his pocket and showed me answers from the Bible to each of my questions. He explained to me why we have to be baptized under water and that it is always preceded by repentance, which you cannot fulfill as a baby. When the people wanted to know how to get saved back in the days, Peter spoke to them and said:
“Repent, and be baptized every one of you in the name of Jesus Christ for the remission of sins, and ye shall receive the gift of the Holy Ghost“ (ACTS 2:38). He showed me many scriptures about receiving the Holy Spirit, and explained to me what that entails. In ACTS 2:4 it’s written clearly:
“… they were all filled with the Holy Ghost, and began to speak with other tongues (language), as the Spirit gave them utterance” – which is a confirmation that someone is filled with the Holy Spirit. It wasn’t just about a warm fuzzy feeling; it was about being sealed with the Holy Spirit as a protection from our adversary. It was evidence. Evidence from God!
I also understood that without the Holy Spirit one cannot be saved. In JOHN 3:5 it says:
“Jesus answered and said unto him, Verily, verily, I say unto thee, Except a man be born again, he cannot see the kingdom of God.” In this moment while we were standing on the street in front of his house, and while he was answering all of my questions with God’s word, my heart was filled with an immense peace and I knew straight away that what he was telling me was the full truth. I was completely flabbergasted – there were still people who were so down-to-earth, who had their feet on the ground, and knew God so well that they were able to give me answers with scriptures from the Bible to each of the questions I had on my heart. This impressed me so much that I met up quite a lot with Christof and his family. I felt so at home right away. About two weeks later I decided to give my life completely to God.
anxieties got less and less and confidence and joy came in
Through my salvation and the years in the Lord, my anxieties got less and less and confidence and joy came in lieu thereof. And if it happens that fear comes upon me, I have learned to bind it in Jesus’ name – and it disappears! The word of God confirms this in EPHESIANS 6:10-17. We do not fight against flesh and blood but against evil spiritual powers. Verses 11 and 18 make it pretty clear that without the Holy Spirit we cannot withstand against Satan, as written in verse 18:
“Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit…” and verse 11: “Put on the whole armour of God, that we may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil.”
I learnt to daily fill my thoughts with God’s Word. Interestingly enough, after receiving the Holy Spirit, I was able to understand the Bible better bit by bit. It was as if a veil was lifted from my eyes. This showed me that the Word of God is our sword in spiritual warfare – our weapon in the battlefield of our minds. I am very thankful to God, that I was able to experience and understand this. I thank God, that he completely renewed me and my life through Jesus Christ.
“Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new” (2 CORINTHIANS 5:17).
Praise the Lord!