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Kerstin - Munich, Germany

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My name is Kerstin, and I live in Munich.  

I would like to share with you how I found God after a long search.

As a child, I was already interested in the question of whether God exists or not. Although my mother didn’t believe in God, she prayed each night with me before I went to sleep. 

Although my family was a member of the protestant church they didn’t live according to their beliefs; therefore, “believing” was not passed on to me. 14 years old was the set time for youth to be confirmed as believing members of the church, and although I was not actually a believer when I turned 14, I did believe that this would be my chance to find out the truth about God. My confirmation ceremony was about a year later, and with disappointment I realized that I did not experience God or anything proving His existence. When I was about 17 I closed the chapter in my life concerning God, and started living in the way that just seemed right to me.

Thus my life took its course.  Outwardly everything looked fine. I had “everything”; an apprenticeship, a job, an apartment, enough money. I also had enough friends, and therefore I can’t really say that I was ever lonely.

But life in the world started to influence me. Life seemed to be a mix of truth and falsehood, so I pretended to be someone I wasn’t: always funny and in a good

Life seemed to be a mix of truth and falsehood,

mood, and at the same time never letting people get close to me, to make sure that no one could ever hurt me. Over the years I distanced myself further from God and doubted His existence. However, the question about God remained ever-present. I just could not understand how - if God really existed - the world could be ruled by so much evil.

The first person I came into contact with who “believed” was a work colleague who was a Jehovah’s Witness. It was very interesting to listen to him. Finally I had met someone who really believed in God’s existence. This colleague visited me quite often at my home, but I realized after a while that this was not the right way. The second person I came into contact with who was a “believer” was again a colleague. She was a member of a Baptist church, and she showed me clearly that since I was not living my life in obedience to God, I could not expect Him to bless me. She cared very much about me and my well-being. However, I wasn’t yet ready to change my life and follow God at that time.

On the other hand, there wasn’t really anything else in my life that gave me fulfillment. In fact, there was an ever-present emptiness inside me. I just did not know how to fill it. In the meantime I had sleep disorders, and feared death simply not knowing what was waiting for me after my life was over.

The following questions did not give me peace:

                                    Why am I here on this earth?

                                    What is the purpose of my existence?

                                    Where will I go after death?

When I was 25, one evening when lying in bed I asked God to show me if He really existed. That evening I heard a voice in my head that told me that He could not help me as I wasn’t keeping His commandments.

After this day, I knew for sure that God existed.

About six months later I got to know another colleague at work, and shortly afterwards I found out that he was a Christian. So we talked a lot about God. This time the Word of the Bible hit me right in the heart. Then things went really fast: three weeks later I went to my first Christian meeting and I knew from that day onwards that God existed. For the first time in a long time, I prayed again and spoke with God personally. Suddenly it was very evident to me that God really lived and wasn’t just hanging dead on a cross. Three days later I got baptized, received the Holy Ghost and spoke in tongues. After this day, I knew for sure that God existed; the constant doubts were gone and remain dispelled to this day.

After that, my life changed completely. For example, the Lord freed me instantly from my nicotine dependency; until then I didn’t think I could ever stop smoking. My friends still wanted me to go to parties with them, but it was clear to me that I didn’t want to live this sinful life anymore, and couldn’t allow anything to lead me away from following God.  It has now been 22 years since I was saved; I am happily married, and my husband is also a Christian.

Never again have I felt separated and alone as I was before my conversion. God has completely filled the emptiness I had inside with His love. No riches in this world could ever come close to what God made out of my life on the day of my conversion. Today it’s clear to me that God does not lie, and whoever seeks Him earnestly will find the truth.

MATTHEW 7:7 “Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you:”

HEBREWS 11:1 “Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.”

In His love,

Kerstin

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